Presentation for Social Context went great earlier today.
Another presentation tomorrow.
I'm pretty drained now. Quite tired from preparing for these 2 presentations.
I've not started on the test construction... I gotta get the presentations over and done with first.
It's been at the back of my mind and God knows how anxious I can be when there's unfinished business.
Because...

1. I'm a perfectionist.
2. I hate procrastination.

It's been a long day and I need my rest. And I need some girlfriend-bitching comfort.
When are you coming back girl? Remember to msg me! You promised!
It's good that tomorrow's a Wednesday.
Thank God for an afternoon class.
More sleep...

The graduation photos are finally ready.
3 photos for myself, 1 for the bro and a huge family portrait.
Why do I say it's huge? Cos it's bigger than the family portrait we took about 3 years back.
We never realised it 'd turn out that big.

Anyway, ground breaking news! For me!
After abstaining from seafood & eggs for the past 7 years cos they gave me allergic reactions, I can now indulge again! Alhamdulillah!
I've been testing & trying for the past week and everything's fine so far.
I'm really thankful! *beamz*

And I'm almost settled with the venue for the wedding.
I need to meet up with the respective people and hopefully settle everything in a few week's time.

I'm quite a busy bee this week with so many calls to make and assignments to complete.
I'm done with the preparations for the Math micro-teaching bit and will start on the test construction on Tuesday.
E-learning is coming up and I really dread that period.
Cos it means more work which does not benefit us in any way.
The task assigned takes up more than 2 hours of our time which is more than the time given to us for that module.
Seriously, many of us would rather travel than go through the e-learning crap.

As much as I would love to stay awake and complete all my Math assignments, that would simply be suicidal. Cos school starts early tomorrow and it's my longest day.
Need the sufficient rest cos there's gonna be one more project meeting for that social context module. The last one before our presentation the next day.

Gotta go apply the top base and coat before going to sleep.
Here's to another week...

Happy Birthday Haz!
This babe turns 24 today... the first person I know to turn 24.
And I've been so excited over her birthday I could hardly keep still the whole week.
We got her a wristlet from Coach. So glad she likes it!
I did research on the time she'd be in school today on the pretext of asking for her help for my assignment. Haha.
And everytime I sms my friends regarding her birthday, I keep chanting to myself like a mantra... Don't send to Haz, don't send to Haz...
Aaaah.. I'm so happy this surprise turned out well *beamz*

And I hope to meet the fiance tonight too.
Guess that's why the spirit's been up today.
I've missed him so...

This week, it seems like the weekends will be spent working since I've tons of assignments to do what with 2 presentations coming up next week!
I'll get through it!
I know I will... It helps to have tiny treats in between the heavy workload.
It makes life so much more bearable...

There are times when I don't feel like doing any work.
I'm just too tired from looking at all the slides and notes that I have.
I need a break.
And the only way for that to happen is if I complete everything by Chinese New Year.

Woke up tired today.
I woke up twice last night & I dreamt such disturbing dreams.
3 different dreams to be precise.
Maybe that's why I'm tired. And a little depressed.

I'm just tired.

Sighz.

I feel like crying...

Weekends zoomed by & by the time I realised that, it was Sunday night.
Boo!
Great weekend.
The fiance asked me a surprising question which I thought he'd noticed all along.
Apparently he didn't. Well, I always am that way, maybe it was just too obvious that day.

I pushed myself to complete all my tasks upon reaching home today.
And I did it! Albeit being extremely lethargic.
So I'm free for a while now...
Gives me time to start on the test paper and the lesson plan but I am just soooo drained...

I feel like having Fish & Co.
Oh by the way, we tried Hei Sushi on Sunday. Was okay, normal sushi bar standard just on the pricey side cos we're in Singapore!
Our sushi trips to JB were more fulfilling cos we paid about the same price for a lot more than the amount we ate at Hei.
And today, I feel like Fish & Co.
But everytime I look at myself in the mirror, I tell myself I should start losing some weight.
And the first step is to stop indulging so much.
But timing's pretty bad these days, I keep craving for so many things.
The cramps are here but the menses is yet to come.

Gonna psycho myself into doing some work tonight after prayers.
Will see how that goes...

Today marks our 111th month. Cool no. huh?
Kinda like the triple 1 thingee.
I'm a sucker for numbers.

Which reminds me... this is the year of the Rat!
It's my year! Okay, not my year, MY year but OUR year.
For those of us whose ages are multiples of 12.
*grinz*

Anyway, as much as I'd like to complete the 2nd essay tonight, I simply couldn't.
I don't know why. Probably don't have the drive cos the topic this time round is sooo dry.
I'm halfway through it though. I just can't think enough so I couldn't write on the perspectives part.

And it doesn't help that I'm hungry so I've been munching on baby carrots and cherry tomatoes the whole day but still not satisfied. Know that feeling?
It doesn't feel sinful enough.
I have a theory (although it's not been widely tested except for myself... haha).
When the stomach growls, the brain doesn't think efficiently enough as it keeps thinking of how hungry you are & all the food that you want to get your hands on.

Oh & there's a new yoghurt shop down at Taka basement. Seems new to me cos I've not seen it before.
Super yummy! Go try if you happen to be there.

This weekend, I'm not gonna do any work.
Okay, I've not been doing any work for the past weekends cos I think I need that break.
Been slaving during the weekdays, gotta have the weekends to myself =)
And since I'm done with the obligated tasks, all the better!
Looking forward to catching American Gangster on Sunday after so much talk about it by everyone! The media... friends...

There's effectively 2 more days of weekends cos Friday evenings seem to pass by so quickly!
Had my nap in the afternoon but I'm still quite sleepy.
Figured I better sleep than eat. I'm so tempted to dump a bowl of instant noodles into the microwave.
Sighz.
Okay, gotta get myself well-rested for an early start tomorrow.
It always is for my Saturday mornings...

I'm done with one of the qed 504 essays!
Took me one hour to write the paper from scratch.
Short essay... 1 000 words. Pretty easy. To write I mean.
Well, I'm gonna start on the 2nd essay for qed 504 tomorrow so I can chuck that module away by next week. Yayness!
But I do regret not writing the essay for the first topic which was to be handed in this week. I'd be done by now. But you see, couldn't start my engine last week. Not in the mood to do any work.
Now that I've got the momentum going, it feels a lot easier to complete the tasks assigned.

Janice, Grace & I are meeting in school at 8.30 tomorrow morning to run!
Surprise surprise!
Thanks to Grace, we're finally moving our asses to exercise instead of indulging ourselves with food every Tuesday. Cos our longest breaks are on Tuesdays.
Hope it doesn't rain.

So now I gotta pack my running bag.
Since I had my nap earlier this afternoon, I'm all bright & chirpy.
Not good.
Need to wake up early tomorrow.
Better pack my bag... fast & get some sleep.
Nytez!

Have you ever had days where your body is screaming for rest but your brain refuses to?
Well, today is one of those days for me.
I've had lessons from 8.30 a.m. It was super draining.
I had to hold up my handout during Maths tutorial so I could shut my eyes. Haha.

The moment I reached home, I've been working non-stop.
Completed my outline for the presentation meeting this Thursday, e-mailed the overview we discussed earlier today to the group members, refined my reflection to be submitted tomorrow...
I'm gonna start on the essay tomorrow morning. By hook or by crook, I gotta get sth done.
Then I can finally start on my Maths stuff with peace of mind. I actually bought the books cos the library is useless. All books have been borrowed out. Anyway, the books will come in handy for future use. I'm thinking of them as investments.
My brain hurts from thinking too much.

I. need. sleep.

I've managed to complete the first draft of lesson planning for micro-teaching.
I have to say it's a good start. Managed to sit for a full 3 hours and got everything done for the lesson planning bit. Gotta prepare the slides & worksheets soon.

Then there's the reading which I'll start on them probably tonight or tomorrow.
Cos I still need to borrow the books from Grace to zap.

I'm feeling so drained now. Fasting today.
That adds on to the drained part.
No nourishment.
I'm always a lil more lethargic on days that I'm fasting.

I kept thinking of Marche's earlier during Science. To be more precise, their wedges & crepe.
Ooooh...
I'm gonna perform my prayers now to avoid thinking of food and then probably get down to reading those readings.
If I manage to stay awake, of course...

Busy, busy, busy.
That's what life has become since school has resumed.
Tons of assignments to be done and today's only been the 3rd day of school!

The depression got worse.
I'm praying for God to grant me strength to overcome this period of time and peace of mind.
My mind is in shambles.
Why oh why?
And my dreams are scaring the shit out of me.
I believe strongly in my dreams as they have been almost accurate so far.
They act as signs to me.
These dreams add on to my depression and the tangled web of thoughts in my head.

I'm gonna hit the library tomorrow.
Time to borrow books to get all my stuff done!
I really need to get started on something... anything!
But my gears simply refuse to get revved up... I'm still in holiday mood.

I'm gonna get some stuff done tomorrow.
That is if I can remember half the things I learnt last semester!
Gawd... the box has to be uncovered... again.

I won $500 voucher yesterday!
It's our win!
I was surprised when the host announced my name during the lucky draw.
Was hoping for the Grand Prize but it's still better than nothing, right?
What a great start for 2008! =)

And Mum shared her 'secret' doughnut recipe with me.
I've always loved her doughnuts as a kid, and I still do!
We made it together but I hate the part when we have to wait for everything to rise!
There's so many waiting intervals!
Anyway, the doughnuts are best eaten piping hot!
Yum yumz.
It's making my stomach rumble just thinking bout those fat, round things...

Attended a friend's wedding on New Year's Eve.
I'm too lazy to put up the pix. I'm too lazy to do anything these days, in fact.
I love the dress I wore to their wedding.
It's blue! And it shows half my breasts. Haha.
It's quite a dreamy dress... floral & stuff but it's still sexy with it's super low cut front and back.
I simply love it.

Amidst all the good things going around, sometimes shit happens.
And I'm not very good at handling things when shit happens cos I'm such a perfectionist.
It proves to be a bane in disguise.
The perfectionist part.
I need to learn to accept others' faults and views.
It's tough but I gotta do it.
Cos ultimately, it's not about me alone.
I only have the best interests at heart but maybe, my style is too crampy.
It's time to breathe and think...

Anyway, God knows I'm not comfortable around minahs.
Somehow, I'm at a loss as to what to say, how to react, around them.
They're just so... different.
From their speech to their dress.
So the best thing to do?
Grit the teeth & smile. Cos there's nothing else that I can say.
Oh well, that's life.
How I wish they're non-existent. At least to me.
And that's like wishing for the stars to fall in your hands.

Right now, I'm tired. Tired from running around the whole day.
It's time to hit the bed...