I've been feeling dizzy of late. Not sure if it's because of the haze.
It has worsened the past few days.
It doesn't help that I feel lethargic all the time too.

With the tremors of the earthquake at Sumatra felt here in Singapore, it left me with a spinning headache that has not gone away!
And that was around 6+ when I was on the road.
For a while, I thought, why is the car swaying right and left?
CNA kept us updated.

It's Children's Day tomorrow i.e. holiday!
Happy Children's Day to all! There's a child in every one of us.
I've 2 things lined up for tomorrow: Remarks and confirmation of lodging.
We're planning a short trip in 2 weeks and I'm looking forward to the getaway.

Have a Break. Have a Kit Kat.
Sums up all that I feel.
Early respite tonight.

Wow... this has been one crazy week. Make it weeks.
When was the last time I updated my entries? I can't remember.

Eid fell on 20th September 2009. Dad's birthday. He would have been 54.
Bro's birthday is coming up this Sunday. Must remember to message him at 12 a.m. Aussie time.
Oh, and happy Eid to all Muslims.

I brought so many things home today.
2 stacks of marking and my school lappie.
But with the day planned for tomorrow and Sunday, I don't see how I can get my work done.
Not that I mind very much since it's the weekends anyway, why on Earth am I bringing work back?! But I've not done my remarks for the end of year report. Shucks.
That will take me a few hours and tonight is just not the night to crack my brains to think of something to write for each person.
Why? Cos I'm stress-ed.
Got a call earlier telling me that some things have not been done so I've been doing them after the guests left and I'll have to make a trip to school tomorrow morning to obtain my data to be keyed in.
Till I get that done, my mind and heart will not feel at ease.

Marking and remarks will just have to wait.
Pray that I can squeeze in a teeny bit of time to get those done.
Oh! I've not bought the gifts!
Shucks.
Okay, Sunday.
Someone please remind me...

It's time to seek solace in prayer.

It's funny that I don't find her cute like how everyone has been commenting.
There's nothing special about her.
Nothing for me to fawn over.
I've only met her thrice and she's almost 2 now.
To me, she's just another kid.
As long as you don't cry, you can make your existence known to me.
Else I'll taunt you till you get scared to even make a peep. So scram kid.
The last I met her, she was crying her lungs out.
I had to muster all the patience I can manage within me to prevent myself from lashing out at her.
Thank goodness we're not related.

Time passes by so damn fast when it's the holidays.
It's Friday... already!
How sad is that?
I spent my Monday in school, Tuesday in bed, Wednesday running errands with the hubby and yesterday, at JB.
Today, I'm just chilling.
Can the holidays be longer?
We're sort of planning a short getaway-cum-birthday-celebration next month.
That's keeping me excited!

I love... You.

It's amazing how some people add you as a friend over Facebook.
I never did quite like her. She was too minah-ish.
But of course, at that age, I never knew the word "minah".
In fact, I never mixed around well with the Malay girls. Make it us, instead of just me.
Frinn and I never mixed around well with the Malay girls.
Then, some time back, I got a friend request from someone, whom I seriously didn't know who.
Cos I don't remember her name being as such.
Anyway, I accepted it cos I saw a few friends as mutual friends.
Viewed her pictures and I have to say, the perception doesn't change. Although one wouldn't really term her as "minah", she still portrays the same image that she did many years back.
Some things just don't change I guess.

And a few people on Facebook are driving me up the wall with their posts.
Some have got endless energy for the upcoming Eid.
I could be the only person in the entire world who has an issue with this cos I just don't see what the excitement is all about.
It's too troublesome, in my opinion.
Too many people to visit, too many obligations to fulfil.
I'm not much of a people-person. Maybe that's why I prefer to spend time alone, shop alone, ... unless it's with Mum, Nina, Acap or hubby.
Tags like " Mintak2 next week bleh jln2 kat Geylang... Nak beli baju Raya, kasut Raya, tempat kuih Raya dan semuanya yg sewaktu dgn Raya.. Must prepare list kuikuikui! " simply drives me up the wall!
Seriously, if that was said in front of me right now, I'll slap her so hard, she'll never forget it. It's irritating! It's so typical! Aaaargh!

Some people have got no idea what it means to celebrate Eid.
You rejoice when it's Ramadhan cos this is the time to pray and read the Quran with multiple rewards granted, and Eid is secondary, albeit a celebration to celebrate the victory of overcoming hunger and evil deeds during the month of Ramadhan.
Typical people just get excited over the clothes and the food and whatnots.
Ignorant fools.

I'm going to go perform my prayers to curb the frustration before I end up insulting others.

The sun is shining gloriously, all bright and sunny outside my window.
But I'm freezing my ass off in my room.
Cos the hubby just got home this morning and he's asleep so the air-conditioner's still switched on.
With a temperature, anything less than 30 degree Celsius is freezing cold.
My hands are clammy and I have a pair of socks on.

I like to watch the hubby asleep. He's all over the bed, sleeping like a baby.
And believe it or not, sometimes, I wake up in the middle of the night, woken up by his deep-throated snores and I end up listening to him and enjoying the sounds.
It provides me with a kind of tranquility that I don't get during the day.

My head feels heavy.
I should go rest now.

The last I remembered, I was sick during the holidays too.
Today, I'm down with fever, cough... the works. The throat feels like it's laid with gravel.
I wanna enjoy my holidays! Albeit 1 week...
Better than nothing right?
1 more term...
It's finally here.
The perks of the job? A friend once mentioned, you work your ass off for 10 weeks before you get a break.
So there's effectively 4 cycles in a year.
I plan to stay healthy for the rest of this week so I can actually enjoy my break.

As much as I'm complaining and ranting about my job, it's not that I hate it.
I realise that it's a favourite pastime for people who share the same profession.
We are never, I repeat, never contented.
It's gotta be the system.
No matter where you go, it's the system that gets onto you.
Like my brother says, same shit different day. Only this time, it's same shit, different name.
He has so aptly put it in so many different issues.

Oh and can you believe that both my phone and my only pair of glasses are konked out?!
First, I can't hear through the earpiece on the phone. It's dead silent.
I can only use the speaker to have a conversation with anyone.
So the whole world can hear us.
That was yesterday.
Today, my glasses broke.
I took it off my face to take my ablution, and it broke.
And my last pair of contact lenses have just expired on me.
Will need to get both the phone repaired and the glasses replaced asap!

What a day!

Ripped apart.

I heeded the hubby's advice and decided to start on something related to work.
Just to get a head start so that I won't have so many things to do tomorrow.
So I did.
And I checked my e-mail.
Big mistake.
It spoilt whatever mood that I have.
Schedule for Monday's and Tuesday's meeting is out.
Fucked up.
Sometimes I wonder whether I'm in a business organisation.

Alright, there's tons to do.
Gotta continue.

Perseverance.
It's the best school value that I've learnt so far.
I'm persevering till this Friday.
2 more days to go!

Anyway, I received more gifts today.
The cards in the mailbox touched my heart.
I have one that goes... " Even though you're always angry with me for not doing my work, I know that you did that out of love."
So true.
Then I wonder, why is it that you do what you do?!

Then the gifts start getting "exotic".
I have an eyelash curler from a brand that I've used before so I know how much that costs.
I have other things which I won't reveal here.
And this is the 2nd time that they shock me with their culinary skills.
Man, they're good at baking.
Their cupcakes and cookies are good! I know it's them who baked those cookies and cakes cos of the way it looks. Haha.
It came from the heart. That's what melts me.

Thank you for enlightening me with your gifts from the heart.
For making me think twice about leaving.
For all the fun we had and still having.
For making me forget that I have a sucky boss. Momentarily.
Thank you.