Shopping today! Woo hoo!

I read the papers today and I'm amazed at how some parents think.
The issue about whether you choose to study in a recognised local university or overseas.
Parents have replied that it's actually the universities that choose their students and not the students choosing the school.
Well, I have to say it's the survival of the fittest.
Harsh truth but it's true.
If NUS , SMU or NTU for that matter, takes in any Tom, Dick or Harry, then where's that sense of survival of the fittest in today's ever competitive lifestyle?
If you've not been accepted into any of the listed schools above, then you're simply not good enough. I'm sorry but that's the plain truth.
If everyone is accepted, then studying in these 3 universities in Singapore is just a big joke.

Has anyone ever thought why most organisations save for private firms or creative industries, are more critical of applicants who have gotten their degrees from less recognised or even unrecognised institutions?
Simply because the organisations are not able to trust the kind of education that one has received from those institutions. This is what I feel.

I was slightly riled when I read the comments posted by those parents.
Can't they think? Where have all their years of education gone to?
I'm sure this issue is not simply reserved for Singaporeans. Other countries are facing it too.

Talking about tertiary education, people around me already have plans to upgrade themselves with next year. I wish you all the best.
A friend is going to pursue her Masters degree. All the best dear!
Others are also moving towards similar paths.
Isn't that so envious?
I feel so stagnant to be surrounded by these people.
After 2 years of obtaining my degree, I have yet to obtain my Masters!
It's so sad when I think of it. It makes me feel like an idler.

I wanted to pursue my Masters after graduation but Mum advises me to get working experience. Then marriage came up because I can't just have a stagnant relationship after completing my studies, can I?
It's not that I don't want to get married, I do, but all plans to continue studying have to be put on hold.
Well, people say patience is a virtue. I'll wait for that day to come when I can pursue my dreams. One of my favourite profs once said this: If you have the opportunity, never get out of university. It's the best place to be in.
Well prof, I totally agree. I can't wait to be back in.

With the marriage course successfully completed, I'm wondering if I'm really ready to be married with just 2 days of lectures and activities about life, really.

Lately, I've been experiencing terrible discomfort. Too much wind in my body.
It's causing the thumping headache and my body to ache.
It was more than I could bear today so I requested for early release.
I went home to sleep and arranged for a full body massage but the headache's still here.
I'm really tired.
The fiance is getting worried with my condition cos I get these ailments so frequently.
It all boils down to work and stress.
Even the masseuse told me to sleep more.
Hah. Easier said than done.
How can I when there's so much work to do and I'm always worried that I'm not able to finish the tasks? Sighz.
There's nothing to do except to endure all the shitload.
There are times when I've contemplated approaching my GP for sleeping pills.
I'm definitely turning in by 8.30 tonight.

Currently I'm bitching on msn with a fellow colleague.
We definitely have plenty of common issues to bitch about.
I should stop talking about work.
It's causing me further distress.
But it's really FUCKING ridiculous.

Breathe.
One more time.

Okay, it's time for dinner and some rest again.

I quite enjoyed the first session of the prenuptial course save for the second half of it which was conducted by the ustaz. I thought the session was pretty informative.



I'll tell you why I didn't like the part which was carried out by the ustaz.

Firstly, he's not fluent in English so I got quite muddle-headed with what he said. Pronunciation and all. Secondly, he uses too many Arabic terms which he sort of assumes I guess, that everyone understands those terms. I feel that's the fault with many of the religious leaders when they're out there giving speeches. Thirdly, I asked him a question bout the akad nikah but he was too concerned with me going against the adat (culture). Plus he was too shy when he talked about sex. I mean c'mon, we're all adults. Just say it as it is. Sex. You don't have to go all metaphorical about it. Sex is part of life. That's how we came to be in this world. So just say it! It could be the age but then again, my mum talks about sex with me. So what's wrong? Maybe he's too caught up with the adat thingee about how you're not supposed to discuss about sex. Oh I don't know. I don't really like old people much when they're too conservative.



Anyway, hope the second session would be fruitful too. I quite enjoyed the session even though some people are pretty grouchy about it since they're being forced and all. Well, since we've dragged our asses down so early on Sunday morning, let's just leave our scowls at home and make the best of our time there yar? In a way, it helps me to know more about the fiance even though we've been together for a decade. It helps me to reaffirm the information I know about him through written activities.

Can't wait to get our lives started! *beamz*

"... Baby I'd love you to want me

The way that I want you

The way that it should be..."

Update: My ears and my head hurt after wearing the tudung for the whole day! Can someone tell me why?

Why bother having a blog if the access is restricted?
Keep a diary instead, it'll better suit the needs...

Celine Dion never fails to make my heart soar when I listen to her songs.
Currently "Have You Ever Been in Love?" is playing on this lappie. Her voice makes me feel better than what I'm feeling.
Cos I have a sorethroat and have been feeling feverish since morning. And now, I'm plagued with a headache.
Groanz.

I've been craving for muffins ever since Mrs Wong handed me one of those muffins from Tanjong Pagar two days ago. I know they're from the same shop cos no other muffin can contest their muffins. I'm definitely getting some tomorrow before tuition.
Yummy...

And I'm thankful it's gonna be a short week next week. With Monday being a school holiday, and Thursday and Friday have been set aside for the all-important exam days for the Primary Sixes, it's definitely a week worth looking forward to.

The marriage course will commence this Sunday. I'm not sure of what to expect or more importantly, what is expected of me.
People have told me it's just a waste of time.
I'm going to go with an open mind and heart but deep within me, I have my doubts especially when things are run by the religious body/racial organisation.
I just don't have faith in their programmes due to experience.

My mind is in shambles right now. I'm just ranting out whatever comes to my mind.
I'm feeling jaded already.
And it's not even been half a year.
I try to look at the greener side of things but sometimes, there just isn't any except for that one choice which can be made only after 2 years of service.
Right now, I'm only looking forward to the wedding.
I will try to enjoy everything about it, even when it comes down to the nitty gritty details.

Okay, there's tons to do tomorrow.
And this headache is getting worse.
It's time to hit the Zees...

Have a great weekend!

I'm feeling so fucking frustrated tonight.
I can't quite put my feelings into words but I can put it in one sound.... AAAAARRRRGGHH!

But I did have an enjoyable weekend.
And today, I enjoyed a treat from Haslina with her family. Thanks dear.
Really appreciate your thoughts of having me around.
Let's have dinner soon, yeah?

Back to the frustration.
I've been given a project to handle not too long ago.
I've tried to do as much as I can over the week.
I've not completed making the charts though.
I don't have the fucking time! Tell me just when do I have the luxury of time to draw stupid lines to make charts?
It's not like I could make them using the computer.
I've to fix a few pieces of vanguard sheets together to make one chart for one fucking level.
You know how much work goes into just making one chart?
Aaaaargh!
If you don't have the fucking time to do it, what makes you think that I have?
On top of all the fucked up marking, there're other idiotic things to do and attend and watever else.
Aaargh!
I really can't take it anymore tonight. I have to vent out all my anger!
Before I get nasty and vulgar to certain people, I need to find an avenue to relieve myself.

I'm tryin to keep my anger at a low level now.
It's not good for my health. I can already feel the stress building up.
Heavy chest, difficulty in breathing...
Let's talk about something more fun.
Like the DSLR course I attended with Mum on Friday and Saturday.
It's really a wonderful gadget to work with!
And I loved the photo-taking session on Saturday where we had to produce replicas of the pictures given to us.
Pictures taken by the person who conducted the course himself, an experienced photographer.
Pretty tough pictures to capture but not impossible.
It just requires practice.
Maybe Mum's getting a DSLR. That would be super fun!
Yay! Can't wait for that day to come!

And the fiance and I got another item for the wedding.
Thanks baby =)

Alright, I need to print a worksheet and settle my stuff for tomorrow.
Fuck.
I hate the thought.