chinese is literally drivin me crazy!! i spent the past hour completin conversation exercise 1 which consists of only 2 pages... i stil hav to complete chinese characters exercises 5.4-5.6. dunno how long i'll spend on them. aargh!! & now, i've a headache. muz be too many characters... after a while, they juz look the same cos i can't be bothered to think anymore. so tirin seh...


okay, gotta go back to my readins. sorta like a break in between chinese before it drives me nuts. better look at somethin familiar like english words...

yesterday was great. after literally of one week of almost no contact cos he was super bz. beginnin to miss him oready. another long week ahead cos he has some stuff in camp nxt weekend. was told that he'll be goin to brunei for further trainin as well in 2 wks time. sigh... i try not to think bout it, try to occupy my mind with other stuff but... oh well, it's only for a while. keep tellin myself it's a temporary arrangement.


anyway, the scaredy cad me caught 'THE MAID' laz nyte. hahah... it wasn't as scary as i thought it would turn out to be. & no wild imaginations this time round, unlike other horror flicks. hehe.. or does this mean i'm becomin 'braver'?? yeah right. i think i'm afraid cos it's so vivid unlike real-life encounters. the latter's less terrifyin cos it's vague. i hav to say it's a pretty good production..no wonder it's been bought overseas. not bad for a local production cos it's produced by a chinese director. the reason is cos they learn their skills from hong kong producers. unlike suria's or m'sia's films which are juz a waste of time.


& i finally got my toner for my printer. yay! now i won't hav worries of runnin out of ink in the midst of printin notes & readins. got it from funan cos i cancelled my order with the skul co-op which is like takin forever to get their stock. demanded refund of my deposit too. surprisingly, there was no hassle between me & the staff.


i'm like a super late-comer to frenster, i noe. by now i would hav been a member if i hadn't signed up for it earlier. cos NM requires us to join a community group for our project. presentation in 2 wks time. since, everyone has a frenster account, it only makes sense to be part of the online community. altho i haven't been doin anythin to it for a long time apart from uploadin my pix, that's the only thing that i do. i don't even search for ppl anymore cos i really can't be bothered oready.


met up with zairinah the past week, in skul & online. met her durin the minister talk durin the hols. she's so fun & pretty... feels like i've known her forever cos we click really well. she had probs with the malay module that she wans to take up. she's so hilarious wen she's pissed..she juz rattles on & on...haha...cute. told her that if i had probs with chinese, i'll look her up & she told me the same for malay. surprisingly, she's from CJ too! small world. she's a year my junior tho. & we hav proclaimed our love to each other..haha!! bf calls it lesbianism! it's juz a girl thingee lar...


no skul on mondays. how lovely that sounds to my ears. went swimmin laz monday. thinkin of makin mondays the official swim day. & read my readins too of coz. plus all the neglected work over the weekend. oh & i've juz hav to say that CHINESE'S A BITCH! projects, fortnight tests, & a whole lot more of stuff lar... it's juz killin me. damn it! & i've yet to view the exhibition down at UCC. anyone up for accompanyin me?? it's free...

I've been sooo tired this past week. So many things had to be done cos it's the odd week. Prepared for tutorials & chinese quiz, which happens every fortnightly!! Sleepy now cos had tuition after skul & skul started at 8 this mornin. Sigh... There's chinese project presentation nxt wk. Gotta visit the library to search the stuff. Alah...penat lar...


I'm so groggy now... Gotta teach tuition tomoro... shucks. Borin... I juz feel so blardy depressed lar this week. Must be the tiredness. Not in the mood for anythin. I can't get hold of myself & my emotions. Juz feel like hittin the bed. Can't blog much now...gotta pray ferz & havin dinner soon. Til nxt time...when I've more to blog apart from bein tired cos I really can't think of anythin else rite now!!

wana juz wans to be zainy & i juz wanna look pretty (haha!!) for the cam! 

nash & me!! lurve the stripey background..pssst...it's at TM juz outside the washroom at level 4 

in a matter of seconds... 

waffles!! yummy!! 

i juz look weird here 

shaky hands=shaky pix 

havin fun in the toilet! 

in the toilet but i look super suaku lar!! haha..cos my eyes were half closed 

inspired by NM lecture... 'listen' 'think' 'speak' 

admirin my slippers...haha 

ferz lecture laz wk where I was on time!! sooo hardworkin... 

Was super late for skul today. Left home at 8 when lecture starts at 8!! Reached skul only at 9 cos there was such heavy traffic!! Ppl who work can come in anytime they like izit?? Why are there so many cars on the road at freakin 9 in the mornin!! Aren't they supposed to be already seated comfortably in their offices by then?? Sooo frustratin seh.. Mel msged me askin if I was comin for lecture & she thot I drove to skul. haha...Told her I can drive but no car..she's free to fetch me. I'm always available for that offer. hehe... Only came for like half an hour of the lecture. If not for the things I had to carry out today, I wouldn't hav bothered stirrin from my bed this mornin when I realized i was late.


Had to meet Gangga who wanted to return me my notes & book. Then headed to the library to zap my readins where I met Ayang's mum! I was freakin out & goin oh my gawd! oh my gawd! wen I saw her walkin towards the direction I was at. haha...cos she hasn't seen me in my coloured hair & afraid she wouldn't like it or freaked out by it. She seemed cool tho...phew...hehe. Then I had to collect my NM 2216 coursepack from the forum. I'd forgotten to visit the co-op tho to enquire whether my toner had arrived. Wil juz hav to do that nxt Monday.


All in all it had been a good day tho with lazy weather thru out. I was a lil mabuk tho cos kena the rain. I'm super sensitive to rain even tho it's not hujan panas. Sure mabuk. Oooooh & my waffles cravins were fulfilled!! soooo happie *grinz* hhheh...Snapped lots of pix too...


Friday tomoro & I can't wait for time to pass!! I miss him terribly. Met him yesterday at the drivin ctr for a while cos I had to pass him sth urgent but it was too short a meet. & you can never hav enuf of a good thing I guess... 1 day to go & I can't wait for our nxt date!!

CORS is drivin everyone nuts...everyone who's online now. We're like tryin super hard to rank the freakin tutorials but the system juz won't cooperate. Instead of askin wat's wrong with CORS, we should ask what's RIGHT bout CORS...aaargh... I stil hav errands to run later. Plz plz plz let me be able to rank my tutorials...gotten thru to the tutorial page. I juz need to rank them. Plz....

Bumped into Joanne in skul co-op juz now. Was quite a surprise really...didn't expect to meet her in skul..of all places!! It's pretty far from her aunt's place too... Apparently, she's workin in NUS. She's leavin for home soon at the end of the mth tho... Shall we meet up again for old times' sakes??


Was stopped by Faisal along the passageway while gettin to lecture juz now. Wonderin if I should consider joinin PBM as a CCA. hmmm...Maybe not. But it's gonna be super sucky if they hold their functions on sats. I can't make it anyway... have a tuition assignment on sats. Then again, I need a CCA...or do I??


I wan more money but Mie will literally kill me if I were to go out to work & skul at the same time. She was never for the idea. Key word: want, not need. So hence the reaction. It's not like I don't have enuf money, I juz want more so I can spend more without spendin my mum's money. Oh well, it's juz aimless rambling on my part. Anyway, I'm not really sure if I can actually ever sustain workin in a cafe or the likes. I'm not one who can endure much, knowin myself as well as I do. haha... & all that service crap. I prefer to be the one served than the one havin to serve I guess. Oh well...


Gonna bathe now I guess. Pretty sticky...eeew...

Mondays are good... cos I don't hav skul on Mondays!! yay!! Hope it stays this way when tutorials commence...long weekends...I wish Friday would be a free day too but fat chance cos I've got urban lecture & a planned Chinese tutorial. Spent the day readin...for skul. So far completed those which I've bought the coursepack for. Others were not on sale yet last week. Wil be in skul earlier tomoro to get the coursepacks for the other modules. May hav to get textbks for urban soci & new media. hmmm...


I've yet to view the webcast lecture for urban lecture for this week cos this friday's lecture's cancelled. Another free day this week!! yay!! The lecure's been uploaded but too lazy to view it now. Takder mood lar nak dngr lecture. Stil havin slight cramps. Bearable tho... Yeah, my cramps last me for 2 days but I try to get thru without medication unless really needed like I need to go out or sth. If there's skul, I juz skip it. haha... gotta get my priorities rite eh??


So much printin to do & I'm stil waitin for my order of toner. Don't wanna print too many readins now in case I need to print more impt stuff like assns. Hurry up & call me wil u??


I dunno why but I sooo feel like waffles...again!! Me & my endless cravins...I simply can't stop thinkin about food!! Always thinkin of my stomach when I've nothin else to do. Ooooh....& I lost weight!! Lost 3 kilos...pretty happy. The last time I weighed myself was like errr...2 wks ago?? haha...these 2 wks haven't been runnin much cos skul's started & always bz. Havin cramps today so I can't run. I wanna lose 2 more kilos...then I'll be perfectly happy. I always lose weight durin skul semesters so i think it should be quite possible to lose more weight. Must be all the flights of stairs & stress.


He was sooo sweet yesterday he made me cry. Literally...okay, maybe teary but it was really, really teary. So much so that my vision was damn blurred... haha... I'm pretty much a softie at heart. It was a really sweet gesture of u baby...thx. *mwackz* I'm cuddlin my bear-bear for companionship now while waitin for the real person to hold me. hehe..I've been cuddlin it at nyte & when I'm feelin lonely for about 2 yrs now cos it was my 5th anniversary gift from him. Lurve it!! Speakin of which, his birthday's in 2 months time. Gotta save up... His birthday & our anniversary are 3 days apart so it's kinda a major event. To me at least...hehe.


Skul ends at 6 tomoro. Not lookin forward to that definitely. Oh well, you win some, you lose some. At least skul starts at 2. I really can't take another mornin class. I was dead beat last week cos both thursday & friday classes start in the mornin. Thursday was at 8 & Friday was at 10. It was enuf to knock me out completely in the afnoon. Okiez...4 days til weekends! Til then, lessons, here I come...

Crampy day today. Got it laz nyte juz before we left my place. Lucky laz nyte felt fine. Only felt the cramps when I was sleepin. But the cramps aren't that bad either lar...normal ones where I can move around.


Ayang came over to my place to complete his stuff. Had our dinner at Al-Majlis...wanted to get shisha but we had to rush off elsewhere. Came home ard 2+ to find that Acap juz got back too. Watchin tv with Abang Dan. So noisy seh..mcm baru pukul 10 mlm like dat.haha...


I can't believe today's Sunday. I'm already lookin forward to Friday & I've not even gotten thru half of this week!! Been readin my readins like a studious person. haha... Hav to lar. Don't wanna rush at the last minute. All my soci mods are level 3000 mods so they're quite demandin. Been printin lec notes too....lots of them!!


Weekends...when will u pass my way again??

mum's back since yesterday afnoon. got a spaghetti strap, a long sleeved blouse, a skirt & a HRC tee from mum. thx mummie!! i love all the stuff she got me. even if they weren't to my likin, i'd hav loved them too cos they're gifts from my mum. *beamz*


i was rite...she did take mc for today cos she was too tired. eheh...but we juz went to look for printer toner & cartridges cos we left home in the afnoon. headed to TTSH ferz cos mummie & bibik wanted to take their jabs. we went to funan to look for the printer stuff cos i dunno where else to look for all these computer related stuff. & i had a cravin for waffles...again!! this time, we ate at swensens. i had my waffle dream, nina & mie had their sticky, chewy, chocolate. yum!! din hav any food there cos nina wanted to get her food from banquet foodcourt. so we headed down to the nearest one from city hall...the one at bugis. i had my tom yam sliced fish bee hoon which literally killed me but it was yummy & hot! i was totally red...like a lobster. like nina said, "nothin new". haha!! mum had the same thing too. nina had her wantan noodle. we shared carrot cake & popiah basah. well, all i can say is that we ate a lot today!! in fact the only thing i can remember precisely bout today was the food we had...hmmm...
by then mum was too tired to walk around & we stil hav to perform our asar prayers. went home instead..which meant that i didn't get my jeans!! uh oh...no jeans for this week. i need jeans...can't live without them. i'm a jeans person. will juz hav to wait a while more i guess...


ferz lesson of the day tomoro starts at 8. am i ready to wake up early for skul?? nope. definitiely no. i don't even noe if i can wake up in the mornin. i've been wakin up ard 12-1 durin the hols. 8 is like a nightmare. oh well, 3 months break is a long time i guess. the fact that i've to return to skul has yet to sink in completely...


the week is almost over..hope everyone had a good week. enjoy wat is left of it & look forward to the weekends!! much love to bf & frenz. *mwackz*

today feels like sunday. why? i dunno. i juz woke up feelin like that. maybe cos i met up with ayang laz nyte... & i'm soooo happy!! i'm glad he was released from camp cos it's national day today. public hols are great. haha! i was quite surprised to receive a call from him laz ntye tellin me that he was at CDA hougang. i'm like huh? there's such a place in hougang? i was really slow & blur lar. haha...nothin new. i'll never catch on hints unless they're literal. anyway, it meant that he was home. yay!!


the poor guy was hungry tho cos his laz meal was lunch at 12. met for supper. met his frenz too...since tomoro's a public holiday so most of them are not workin tomoro. yakkity yak yakkity yak til it was 4. didn't realize the time tho. but my back did hurt like crazy. haha!! sat for too freakin long on that plastic chair. & drinkin soooo much that i was totally bloated. minum macam2 pulak tu. it's a wonder i don't get stomach ache. hehe...


ayang has to book in camp again later tonyte. sigh... pity him sometimes. pretty tirin to travel all the way to jln bahar. but meetin him laz nyte has made me one happy girl. i'm all smiles & all. *grinz*


i cleared my dressin table today. got rid of all the unwanted junk & i just realized that i hav like tons of glosses & eye shadows! that's how long i've not cleared the stuff. i've even forgotten the stuff i bought!! so now it's clean. it won't be long til it's messy again & i'll keep usin the same colours over & over again... it's a vicious cycle. i've been meanin to start on the wardrobe but i don't hav the time nor the energy to do so. but clearin up my table has given me motivation cos now it's soo much easier to find my stuff. the shelves are cleared for the comin skul sem. oh & i need to remind mummie to buy toner for my printer. was printin my readins yesterday & the colour seems light. nope, ididn't hav the toner savin mode switched on. she's not back yet. dunno wat time she'll be back. bet she's gonna take leave again for tomoro. great. can ask her to go shoppin with me if she's not tired. cos i told her to check out square cut jeans, boot cut design, from levi's cos they're sellin for 139.50 here. since m'sia's havin megasale now, maybe they're sellin it cheaper over there. but no...they do not hav boot cut design. they only hav the other 2-slim cut & straight cut. mummie called so many times yesterday cos she couldn't find the bootcut no matter which boutique she went to. they had the other 2 cos the lady told her they didn't carry that design. mie asked if i wanted slim...err...don't think so. anyway, slim is juz a nicer way of sayin tapered jeans. mie thot it looks like those minahs pants!! ahah...soo true. after all these years of educatin her on mats & minahs, she finally mastered it!! haha...so it looks like i'll juz hav to get it here. dunno when tho. if mummie's tired tomoro, don't think i'll be able to get it then. & i need a new pair of jeans badly!! but i noe mummie doesn't really enjoy shoppin there cos there's nothin much to buy. she went to most of the shoppin centres in kL but she was pretty disappointed. she msged me the other nyte..on her second day there i think sayin she hasn't bought much & pretty disappointed with what she saw. oh well, that sounds like me in bangkok. haha!! cos i'm not a good shopper at flea markets & sales cos u really hav to dig to get stuff. hmmm..speakin of which, i wanna go for a holiday!! dunno when tho...


insya-Allah mie's goin for umrah again this comin sept with bibik. wouldn't mind goin there again myself. lovely place that left me awed & amazed & touched by the presence of the kaabah right in front of my eyes. it's a feelin that no other place has left me with. went twice & i enjoyed both times. loved the ice-cream there too. haha!! i'm like always 24-7 munchin sth over there. ice-cream, kurma (dates), nuts, bread...even tho it's not the proper meal times!! those were the days that i can gorge myself without puttin on weight lar. now all the weight seems to be concentrated at the breasts & hips. sigh...


okie, gonna start readin my stuff now or i'll never get started on them. wonder if i should catch the NDP later... it seems lamer & more borin by the year...

so much for bein happie that skul's startin on thursday for me. i hav so many readins to read!! only my urban soci mod readins hav been posted on ivle...& there's lec this fri. the rest lum ader criter lagi... & i still hav to revise for my chinese. lum habis2. haha... yeah, cos i'm always not at home!! how to finish my revision rite? smart me.


oh btw.. HAPPIE NATIONAL DAY TO EVERYONE!! not that i'm patriotic but it juz means holy-day for everyone!! yay!! btw, the history of holidays really is holy-day..the exact literal meanin of the word. hehe...that's what takin soci of tourism does to me. enjoy the break guys!! esp those who really need it... hav fun!! *mwackz*

i'm sufferin from back pain now. woke up ard 1 juz now cos i can't seem to open up my eyes!! & when i did, my shoulders are simply killin me. it was the same thing laz sunday too. guess it's a sunday thingee. super malas to get out from the bed... sheesh... what's becomin of me? haha...


guess yesterday had been a long day. i was awake by 6 30 in the mornin for my subuh prayers & i stayed awake till it was time for me to leave for tuition. ayang fetched me from tuition & we went off from there. it was really quite farnie really cos my aunt's block look the same to all the other blocks in her neighbourhood. he fetched me once & he got it right cos i told him the block number. i didn't inform him yesterday cos i thought he would hav recognised it but it turns out dat he was waitin for me at another block!! with exactly the same design & shelter & all. so there i was, waitin for him cos he msged me dat he had arrived to discover dat there was no one in waitin!! apparently, he was waitin at another venue which i swear was the same. nope, not similar. same. haha!! we had a great time tho... from lunch at giant which is at pasir ris btw, not jb ;P. hehe...our fav place for malay western food...if there's such a thing. haha!! slacked at east coast for a while to enjoy the sea breeze which turned out to be wind...it was damn windy & cold laz nyte!! sat by the jetty with others tryin to fish. nice... then we were hungry again!! haha... damn, we do eat a lot!! went to simpang to hav some food where his frenz were already there. left simpang ard 2 30 cos ayang was super tired by then. poor him. he could barely keep his eyes open. but it was a looong day definitely... from 1+ to 3. i guess my pain at the shoulders hav been justified. ehhehe...


i decided not to bring it up to him cos it really is a trivial matter. somehow i know the reason why he refrained from tellin me the truth the other nyte but i juz wanted to hear it from him. when i ferz met him yesterday, i didn't feel anythin. i guess that meant i could live with it & let it go. i don't wanna blow things out of proportion anyway...it really wasn't anythin serious that was worth a quarrel.


mie's in kl now. shoppin at this very moment dat i'm typin i guess. dat's wat we did the last time we were there as a family. shop, shop, shop. she msged me like really a lot yesterday!! cos she left yesterday morn...she's been updatin me with her schedule. like where they're at havin so called breakfast, when they've arrived at kl, lunch & the works. even at nyte...shoppin ard & dinner & all. she hasnt' called or msged today. i guess it's only the ferz day lar. she does dat sometimes when she's away on her own. anwyay, they're drivin so it's better i guess. don't hav to hassle with the unreasonable cabbies there who sometimes talk a lot & get on my nerves. like semangat melayu or sth like dat. watever man...


anyway, i only hav to return to skul on thursday!! yay!! cos i don't hav lectures on mon & chinese lec on wed is cancelled on wed. so my ferz lec starts on thurs...but it's at freakin 8 in the mornin!! ntah leh bangun ke tak. & dat's it. dat's wat my thursdays are all about. 8-10. cos i don't hav leture slots on dat day. this feels great...haha


now i need to look up the venue for the lectures & do up my temporary timetable cos tutorials wil only commence on i dunno when. gotta buy shampoo too...so lazy to go out lar. & haven't prayed at dat. better start on them now...

I juz lurve butterflies...with a cool black layout. *grinz*

Attended the resume & interview workshop. Really found it beneficial. Lots of things that are taken for granted were discussed. & of course the common mistakes in writin up the resume which surprised me cos the things which frens hav mentioned are really huge bloopers indeed!! Sth that shouldn't ever be written in a resume at all!! Wow... An eye-opener really.


Attended the dialogue session with the Minister too last nyte. It started around 8 & ended at 10 30. The minister in session happened to be Yaakob Ibrahim. I did raise certain questions but I guess it was too political & sensitive & many were not happy with the comments raised by me. I'm too liberal I guess. Anyway, the audience targeted for the forum yesterday was Malay / Muslims.


I really feel that I should sign up for a club or society or sth. So I'll hav sth to write about in my resume for my CCA participation. I'm pretty worried now that I'm steppin into my third year of varsity education. The critical decision of whether to continue with honours or graduate with a degree is still bein debated in my mind. Of coz it depends on the grades & interest too. I'm pretty sick with the local academic curriculum. 20 years of my life spent on this rigid & highly segregated system. But if I do decide to graduate nxt year, there's the issue of jobs or post-grad study. The latter is sth that I see as close to impossible cos I don't want to burden my mum with the financial costs although she's okay with it. It's sth that I dream of pursuin. But a miracle may juz happen. I dunno. Then again, if I've to go out to work, am I really ready to? As a teacher? Or sth else? I'm not sure... Time flies when you least expect it too.


Juz came back from watchin Charlie & the Chocolate Factory. & it was superb!! It's like childhood fantasy comes true! Read this minah's blog that she has caught it on dvd & thought that it totally sucked. Won't mention who lar...she's juz not the very popular one. Hehe...anyway, she thought it was dumb cos there was the singing & weird creatures & all. Well dumbo, read the book ferz before you watch the movie. The book was like my fav book when I was 7!! Then again, I doubt she can read much. She's bein such an ass. Judgin even before doin research on it. At least try to appreciate the characters of the story. Minahs. They're juz dumb & an irritatin lot on the face of the earth. Eyesore at that too. Grrr.


On a different note, I'm pretty disappointed in him. I noe he lied. He juz doesn't noe that I noe bout it. Wil mention it when I meet him nxt cos I really wanna noe his explanation. Why does he tell me one thing & do another? I cannot condone lyin. I simply detest it. I was pissed when I ferz realized. But now, I'm juz super disappointed which in my opinion is worse than bein angry. Cos you can shout out ure anger but you're juz totally stumped by disappointment. I wonder why he has to lie & even has the audacity to treat like he's innocent from it by treatin like everythin's normal. I've kept it within me for about a wk now & I'm so tempted to juz confront him but I think I prefer a face-to-face confrontation. To witness his reaction & frankness. Which I hope he'll admit to. It's easier for me to forgive that way. Oh well, we'll see how it goes...


Hopin that I do get my NM mod which I feel I wil cos it doesn't seem very popular. I'm totally outbidded for marketin too!! Can you believe dat?! Aaargh... crazy ppl with crazy bids. Giler lar...seriously. Ridiculous numbers poppin up almost every minute.


Oh well, guess I better turn in now. Pretty tired. Long days...yesterday & today. There's tuition in the evenin tomoro as well. Another long day ahead... Good nyte everyone. Sweet dweamz...

I'm totally outbidded for Woman's Health & Changes In Her Lifetime & I've not even placed my bid yet. Cos the min bid is 432. I've only 423 points for my Programme acc. Shuckz... Really interestin module but I lack the freakin points. Hav to take Chinese 2 now. Hav to start revisin my Chinese 1 oready. Can't rem a single damn thing!! Aaargh!! Stupid biddin shit... Fark!! Or should I take Thai 1 instead?? Together with Nash & Wana... I noe nuts bout Thai tho. This is so frustratin. Hate it when things don't go as planned...