I need time out from the world. The incident which happened in school earlier today made me & is still making me feel damn pissed. Aaaaghh... I don't wanna be bothered by it. See what the outcome is like. I'm seriously dishearted disheartened by the shit that's happening.


Oh & did I mention that my body is freaking aching from head to toe? I was super tired to start off in the morning & I just had to have House Practice today. Right now, I'm fighting this hee-yuge urge to sleep so that I can eat my dinner ferz & probably plop down to bed by 9. Oh the agony!


I wish time would pass by a lil faster so that I don't have to go through tomorrow & Friday. Just let the weekends come. I can't take anymore of this shit. God, give me the strength to get through this...
I hate it when my heart is not at ease, my mind is whirling all the time becos of sth that happened... Fuck. Just fucking leave me alone! Aaaargh.


Dinner's almost here. I'm not one to pass food for anything else. Food's comforting, especially when there's 2 different kinds of dessert today... brownies & some sweet sticky porridge with sago... Yumz!

We went to this place on Saturday night...





Yes! The National Stadium! Didn't scream myself hoarse but I did enjoy the atmosphere & the company. To watch the semi-finals match between Singapore and Malaysia.
The boys were profoundly engrossed in the game.





And I had these 2 lovely boys for company. These 2 very the semangat u know! Screaming and cheering & to put it nicely, putting down the other team. They were booing like crazy.








Ironic thing was, there we were, my fiance & i, getting all pissed off with the Lions cos we felt they played like crap. I mean seriously, if you caught the game, you'd know what I mean. I was like "Blardy lousy team!" when we were sandwiched in between Lion fans! (duh!) I hardly watch local soccer matches so I felt they weren't up to standard. Heh! When we first reached the stadium I actually commented on the tiny field. Haha! Apparently, it's not. Hey, fields are much bigger when I watch World Cup matches okay...
But when Malaysia shot that last penalty shoot-out which determined Singapore's night of glory, the stadium went berserk! We were screaming and doing the Kallang wave thingee... It was all good fun.
I can't kick a ball for nuts if my life depended on it but I still enjoy watching soccer matches.





A finale shot to wrap up that night. My baby looks so weird, trying to smile at something that pakcik said... & I have no idea what it was.

I simply love the new bath scent from The Body Shop: grapefruit.
Simply because I love the fruit itself. & the scent? Heavenly. The bathroom and room just lingers with that fresh, zesty smell after I bathe.
It's quite amusing since I've never taken to any Body Shop products before. But this new scent just took my sense away!


After my visit with the orthopedic at TTSH yesterday, I walked around Novena Square, wanting to get Chocz. They have to-die for apple crumble by the way. So I happened to walk past Body Shop and took a step in. Gatal. Took a whiff & I'm sold! So I got the set. Hee!


It's almost 7. Gonna have dinner soon. Foodie...

This is like sooo basi... but here goes!


Nina's Sweet 16th



A closer view of her favourite cake courtesy of me... Haha!






Lunch at Tandoori Restaraunt. Almost complete except for Cik Habib.








A shot with my growing-old-but-in-denial sis. Hehe.





Nina's 16 now. So fast! Yar, I talk as if I'm forever 16. Haha.
There are more shots but they're mainly pictures of us eating.
She's been 16 for almost 2 weeks now. Enjoy dear sis! It's the best time in our lives. To be young, & carefree.

I'm loving the 'me' time which has been granted to me officially.
I've some horrendous english to mark but I'm not going to let that put me down. Not the whole bunch but a few really upset me & I'll be cursing & swearing cos of these few who make it so difficult to read & to mark.
Maybe I need to drink some relaxing potion (read: tea) before I start marking compositions.


I'm loving the week & I can't wait for the coveted weekends. No 'crap' this week which really got me upset the past week. I can't reveal details here since it's an online portal to my life. Well, almost. I'm really adamant as to why I have to be involved. Seriously, it's none of my fucking business. It's none of anyone's fucking business except yours.


Having had my nap, the only thing to look forward now is meeting the fiance!
Time passes by sooo fast when you're having fun.
*sighz*

The more I think about it, the lighter hearted I feel. Ironic thing is, I can't seem to set my heart on it. I'm undecided.


I know it's still early but I'm super excited cos Feb's coming! I've plans u see. What it is, I can't reveal just yet. It's a day that I want to put a mark on. Aaah... But I still need to sit down & think through the events for the whole day. Hope this happens! This is sooo exciting! Wheeee! Gawd, to think there's a whole month to it before it happens! Haha...


Think I'd like to bake cookies tomorrow. Bought the mix from Sheng Siong just now, which happens to be my very first time to any Sheng Siong outlet. Mum needed to get some stuff & we happened to be in Bedok. Didn't realise it's a whole building on its own! With its very own carpark... Wow. Must be doing very well indeed. But I didn't really like the smell cos there's a strong fishy smell due to the wet market area. Two weeks before, it was the trip to Cold Storage cos Mum wanted to get the ingredients for lasagne & some mashed potato filled with salmon & mushroom dish. Kinda liking these trips to the supermarket. I get to stock myself up with food!


Speaking of food, I've not uploaded the pictures for Nina's birthday last week. Will do so when I have the energy, just not now. I'm too tired after planning out the (damned) lesson plans. & I'm really setting my heart on baking those cookies tomorrow. Okay, who am I kidding? I'm really setting my heart to persuade Mum to bake those cookies tomorrow.
Right now, it's time for that strawberry yoghurt I bought earlier...

I'm feeling all depressed and shitty.
I feel like leaving. I can do just that without any worries, that's for sure.
So why am I still staying on? I need to talk to Mum.
I'm totally confused. I'm so fucking unhappy; it's eating me from the inside.
I hate feeling like this!
It's only been 3 weeks of school & I dread every single day that I've to go to school.
I can't wait for the holidays where I don't have to face anyone from school. & that includes the kids. I don't even wanna think about them! It just makes me so fucking pissed.


I can't wait for the weekends. I've been waiting for the weekends to come since last Sunday. Heh. I hate Mondays. I hate weekdays. Period.


Can someone relief me of this misery?

I'm totally saddened by the news. I got a total shock when Wana told me the news this morning. Prof Ananda has passed on. Then I read it in the papers when I came home from school. He was such a nice man. Patient, quite an easy prof to talk to.
No one expected his death. & I was at NUS last night. I really miss the place. & with this shocking news, I'm wondering if I should return tomorrow. But there's nothing much I can do even if I do return. I was teary as I read the news reported. It was really distressing.
All the more I'm reminded of how you can never be sure when you will go. You may be here today, but the next minute you may not. It's the cycle of life. Something hard to accept and to face to, but that's the cruel truth. My heart is still so painful as I'm typing this. I'm so affected. I feel like crying again...

Ever since school started, all I seem to do is sleep. That doesn't sound right but it's true! I sleep when I'm back from school. If I'm not meeting him, I'll turn in early. I should be satisfied but truth of the matter is, I'm too tired to do anything else! Told ya I'm not a morning person. Fuck. Why do schools in Singapore have to start so fucking early?! Finished all my work in school, which explains this sluggish lifestyle. I'm so much more awake after 7 p.m, like now. Pretty much a zombie walking around school...


I want ice-cream. I WANT ICE-CREAM! Haha...
Suddenly feel like having it right this moment, as I'm typing this, although it has NO connection whatsoever to the issue above. There's ice-cream in the fridge as usual, but I want Ben & Jerry's! Make it the waffles at Ben & Jerry's. Yumz!
It's a date the on our next date! Heh.


& I NEED to do something to my hair. Like have a haircut. Which means my blond hair is gonna be snipped off. Sniff. I like my blond hair. Which then also leads me to doing something else to my hair like straightening or something of the like. Cos my hair will explode when it's short cos it's so thick. Mum recommends I straighten cos I refuse to rebond. Reason being, I feel that it'll make me look like a freak. I need to head down to Jean Yip! I can't decide! Help Patrick!


I an so bored. I will go eat that brownie in the fridge.

Aaaah... School's started. Busy. Tired. & worst of all... Morning...
Bleagh.
Even with wheels to aid me in this almost impossible task of getting out of home in the morning, I'm up by 5freaking15. Can you imagine that?
Which explains why I have been so blardy freaking tired since last week.
I woke up late twice last week, when there was only 3 days of school. Haha.
But school's not too bad.
Kinda liking the change in work timing. I was out of school by 1 today cos I was done with all my markings. Basically, I'm out once the bell rang. Woohoo!
A glorious nap of 3 hours I had. Heh.


First week of '07 went great. Lots of fun for the fiance & I.
Borat was stupid but funny-stupid, if you get what I mean.
Time sure passes by fast when you're in the morning session. I'm anticipating a fun weekend, what with Nina's birthday on Sunday!
More food.. Bring it on bay-beh!

Happy New Year people!
Hope '07 will be a great year for everyone. '06 had definitely been swell for me. =D


A long hiatus from blogging. I've been busy.
Running around, that is. Having lotsa fun, now that I've got my own set of wheels.
Heh.
& basically trying to push revolting thoughts of the start of school (in 2 days time) away. I'm in denial.


So how was your New Year's Eve? Mine was dandy... Not that I went to party or anything.
Spent it with him, a great way to spend New Year's Eve. Mum asked where I spent my New Year's Eve... She thought I was gonna go somewhere loud (read: lots of irritating, pushy people with loud music/noise, depends on what you define as music really) to celebrate it. Haha... Nope.
Just me, him & our drinks & food. Couldn't have been any better.


So, any resolutions? Never had. Although it has been said by someone, I can't remember who... It's good to have resolutions even if you never follow through cos they provide you goals to achieve.
So I'll try this year...
1. To love him, & never stop doing so.
2. To inculcate better saving habits & stop spending money impulsively.
Is no.2 two resolutions? or one?
Oh well, basically, I just wanna live my life to the fullest, to always be happy & not forgetting my responsibilities towards my family, him & my friends.
Not much of a resolution, is there?
Every year, I want the same things. Cos I believe when the heart is settled, everything else falls into place. When relationships are secured, you're a much happier person, putting your heart & soul in the work you do.


Hope 010107 is a superb start to a year filled with happiness for everyone...