Sometimes I wonder if I'm super efficient. Or is it because I have forgotten to do something?
Everyone else is doing something but I've none!
I've completed all that I need to... the remarks, the grades for non-core subjects... except for the HRC and the absentee progress which my co-partner said he would get them done.
So yeah, I have 1.5 h of free time since 11 this morning.

There's marking again this afternoon.
It feels sian-nish since it's a Friday afternoon. Let's pray that it will end early.
I'm feeling slight discomfort today and all I really want is to lay in bed at home with a hot mug of tea.
No. Make that a hot mug of chocolate.

I suddenly feel like catching a movie. Haven't caught one in eons.
High School Musical 3?
Yeah, maybe...

School's out at 10.30 a.m. today. We had a short meeting at 11 and I am now so free but stuck in school.
1 p.m. is the official time out for us.
No one has mentioned anything about packing papers so I'm assuming that the papers are not ready.
I've called up the place to make orders, done all my remarks in the cockpit, edited what I needed to, cleaned up my workspace, ...
I can't think of anything else to do to kill time!

10th anniversary is coming up.
I really have no idea what to get him.
I'm thinking of a box of mini treasures.
But what treasures? Sighz.

When I was younger and even before this whole marriage thingee was brought up, I actually fantasized my wedding date to be our 10th Anniversary!
It's perfect cos it falls on a Saturday.
So crazy right?
Pretty embarrassing too to reveal such a weird fantasy.
Thinking about marriage when it was way before our time to tie the knot then.
And now when the marriage issue is settled, it brings to light so many mixed feelings about so many issues!
Life is confusing.

Oh great! Timecheck: about 30 minutes to go.
Think I'm going to wash the car today before I collect the orders.
There is no one else in the staff room except for me and my boss. I think.
His room is so quiet but the door's open.

I have a feeling Haz will hate me more if she reads this post.
Haha! Jealousy is an ugly feeling babe.
Anyway, you know you love me... right?
Heh.

I have a mini surprise planned for the fiance's birthday tomorrow and I hope it goes well.
I'm currently thinking of what to write on his birthday card.
I'm not sure why I feel a teeny bit restricted this year. The words and feelings don't seem to flow as they easily did.
I can't seem to express myself.
Why?

Could it be?
What should I do?
Please give me a sign...

I am elated that the exams will resume tomorrow! School ends early!
Yayness!
4 more weeks of school! Can't wait for the term to end!
These days I leave almost immediately at 1.30 p.m. This should be the way!
Haha.

Class resumes in 10 minutes time.
Gotta prepare for the 6 periods.

Oh! And I think his car is gorgeous.
A Volkswagen.
Whose car? My nephew's.
Surprising.

I ended my 6 days of fast yesterday. Settled my debts.
So today, it feels like Eid again for me!

Received my posting during contact time just now. A lil disappointed with the venue but happy with the subject assigned.
Wondering why I'm the only newbie who's been assigned that post... A lil unfair but I'll just take things in my stride.
Confidentiality kicks in here so I can't say too much.

Now that exam's nearing and I've cleared all the (damn) books, I've been leaving for home early!
So happy!
Now, why can't that be a daily affair just like how it used to be for me?
The answer lies with the school. Damn it.
There's still marking to do, of course, but less.
And they're in the form of booklets, so I can bring them home.
Not that I do... Haha.
I can't be bothered. I'm tired as it is.
Let me get my peace at home.

It's time for dinner and I wanna catch the Korean drama.
Peace out.

None of the work I brought home this weekend has been done.

This should be a lesson learnt.

I should just forget about bringing home work to do as I hardly ever get them done!

Somehow I just don't feel like doing any work when I'm at home.

I'm sure many share the same sentiment.

I've not even done my digirecords and it's due tomorrow!

I'm sick of being tied down by work which eats into my personal time.

This should stop with immediate effect!

I don't know how far this goal can be carried out... haha. But I'll try...



One more thing. I really feel like chopping off my locks.

I'll have to wait till after the wedding to do that.

It's another of my weird, spontaneous to-do things.

And I know that I'll be longing for long hair if my hair is short.

I'm just tired of having long hair. For now.

Sometimes I don't understand myself...



How can I expect others to understand me?

Till today, I can never talk about Dad without having tears in my eyes.
Even though it has been more than 10 years since he left.
It's 3rd Syawal in a few hours' time.
It's his death anniversary in about 4 hours.

I was tearing at my convocation.
I felt so sad that he was not able to be there.
I still miss you Dad and I love you so much.
And I can't stop these tears from streaming down my cheeks...

Update: It's been 12 years.

Eid Mubarak to all Muslims!
May this year be blessed and filled with happiness...

As usual, I don't feel very joyous on this supposed joyous occassion.
I feel that Hari Raya has been overrated in Asian countries.
Too many crap activities going on for this occassion that just puts me off.
Anyway, I'm thankful for this break.
But it's sad that the blessed month is over.

It's time for me to take a break cos the back is hurting.
I've been seated here from the time I woke up finishing all the marking and doing up my lesson for tomorrow.

Happy Eid to all!