stop.wait.watch: April 2006

feelin crappy & resentful (a lil) & ...
i dunno wat else to describe myself rite now.
im like... i WAS xcited then all the xcitement went away.
even today.
on another note, i made a resolution recently.
not sure if i can make it work out or not.
the temptation can prove to be too great sometimes.
especially in times like this.
i may be talkin in circles but it's for me to noe & u guys to read eh? =)

i've to attend a kenduri over at aunty faridah's place later.
it's after assar!! so late...
i wanna go out!
but mum says i can't get out of it.
so i've to put my plans on hold for a while til the evenin.
stil need to go home & change after that & stuff.
sky's gettin a lil dark. rain now but dun rain at nyte okay?? plz...

free rite now but i can't seem to force myself to study.
altho i noe im supposed to.
i juz can't.
wats wrong with me?
i'll end up asleep i noe. i juz woke up.
so that's not good.

i dun do anythin wen im at home.
not like i can do anythin even if i wan to...
all i can do at home is eat & study. & boy do i eat a lot.
esp durin exam period. im like munch, munch, munch 24-7!!
need to start runnin like crazy after exams man.
but i haven't gained weight. so i dunno why i wanna run.
i juz feel fat with all that consumption of junk.
& i literally mean junk. but nina always wonders where all that went.
haha...

im juz lullin my time away in front of the laptop.
feelin like crap.
wat a terrific combi.
im bored out of my life. i need xcitement.

no one's home. unless u count bibik.
acap's sleepin as usual.
so technically i've the whole house to myself.
peace & quiet.
im juz farkin bored.
maybe put on a dvd or sth. dunno wat show.
haven't kept up with the dvd collection.
can't wait for the evenin...

::facin reality::

so far 3 papers down.
so far so good.
hav been lucky... all questions spotted for all the papers came out.
lucky me!! even mum says so... hehe
1 more paper to go before it's over.
yes, the chapter of my life as a student at NUS would be completed.
juz 1 more time walkin to mpsh, 1 more time sittin in the hall competin against time...
memories that i'd rem for many years to come.
no more a student after that.
gawd, im already missin it.

1 mth break before i start another new chapter in my life.
dunno how that'll turn out to be.
but im thankful for everythin that god has granted me.
thankful that i've gotten a job waaaay before graduation. well, kiasu me.
i juz want a higher pay upon graduation.
haha.. who doesn't?
at the rate im spendin... saving's gonna be reeeeeaaaal tuff.
gotta start disciplinin myself.
startin with the progress package that i've juz received.
went to withdraw $$ juz now & hey ho! money's been deposited.
increase in the number of zeros but im tryin so hard not to spend that money!!
bf plz remind me not to spend... plz...
& to think i juz bought myself a pair of shoes juz now, not knowin that the progress package $$ had been deposited.
it was on 15% discount... so i thot why not? hey im savin a few dollars here...
compared to if i bought it wen there's no sale...
it's gonna be tuff, no doubt.
no more handouts!!
it's always been... mie i need money. mie i need to buy that. mie i need to buy this.

okay, enuf talk bout that.
had my 2nd last paper juz now which means i can hav a good time tomoro!!
yay!
mum's leavin for spain this sunday. gotta send her off.
but im gonna enjoy my sat to the fullest before i've to start studyin (again!!) for my last paper come monday.
gawd... it's a public holiday.
muz i be stuck at home??
mum's not gonna be home so im in charge.
u hear that nina & acap?? im in charge here!!
so ppl... tell me where ure goin!
but nina won't give me probs. she has exams now too. bz studyin.
thinkin of bringin her to go watch THE WILD at the movies after her papers are done.
looks cute!! & it's open now.
so tempted to watch.
hmm... maybe can drag mummie tonyte to watch it??? hehehehe *grinz*

til nxt update then...

1 down! 3 to go...
yesterday was Social Inequalities: Who Gets Ahead?
pretty okay... spotted 2 qns & both came out! uh huh... hentam the qns lar...haha
1 paper tomoro & 1 on fri... then it's pretty relaxin for me cos there's only 1 paper nxt wk.. thurs.
then im done!! yes sirree... okay gettin too xcited wen i've only done one paper...

anyway, im feelin sooo ben & jerry's now.
should i hop down to united square? very near my place...
hmmm... study ferz ar...
wen it gets tirin, maybe i'll hop down & give myself that deserved treat.

& noe wat??
im sooo sad.
i can't meet up with bf this wk.. i gotta wait til the wkends.
too used to meetin him every few days.
i was the one who didn't wanna meet him lar... cos i've got mornin papers on thurs & fri!
blardy 9 in the mornin... sighz.
met him last sunday & im missin my baby already...
can't wait for the wkends!! aaargh!!

this kinda lifestyle is literally drivin me nuts.
wake up, eat, study.
take a nap, wake up & study again.
the studyin part is okay but i need some njoyment in my life!!
like meetin the bf...
sighz... i can go on & on & on...
better shuddup.
stil hav lots of studyin to do.

gotta hav my brunch now cos i didn't hav breakie & bibik's naggin me to eat.. as usual...
then i gotta join Theng, Semar & frenz...hehe

been bz the past week.
study, study, study...
exam's comin up nxt wk.
surprisingly, i love it. i simply like to study. haha... geek.

anyway, yesterday, i did wat i do best.
im so SICK of openin my cupboard & lookin at yet another black top.
so yesterday, i made the impulse decision to shop after tuition.
i went to the shop i knew i was gonna find sth i'd like - zara.
so there i was... happily lookin for clothes but not at the black section.
i had to refrain myself from even walkin there cos the temptation was too great.
so in a matter of 20 mins, i had walked out of the shop & blowin 100+ bucks.
but feelin happy tho!! & that's all that matters...
haha...
talk about impulse shoppin! im really good at that.
finally... some colour in my life!!
not that i don't hav other coloured tops in my wardrobe but im juz sick of wearin them.
heheh... juz another excuse to splurge.
can't wait to go for more shoppin after exams! yay!
mum's leavin for spain soon & i've reminded her to get me clothes & shoes... top priority plz!!

came home feelin like a brand new person.
feelin all excited & all.
with a renewed exuberance to study.
which i did but my stomach kept rumbling.
& to think i had dinner.
so i ate everythin that i could lay my hands on - brownies, cakes, chocolates, choc chip cookies, raisins, apples... can't rem wat else. i juz noe i ate A LOT of junk.
ho comes to my place for tuition & he loves all the junk in my house!! haha...
but guess wat? i was stil ravenous! couldn't concentrate on my notes cos i kept thinkin of my stomach.
so i decided.. that's it. it's time for me to sleep. & that was about 2 last nyte.
woke up for prayers this mornin with gastric. can u believe that?? i've been eatin round the clock yesterday...

i can feel the vibes from my notes...
come, come... read us...
it's a callin... time to stop bloggin.

mie & nina too bz eatin... can't be bothered with the cam.. kak ina & bibik were present too.

attackin my food

my meal... notice the same one on bf's side?? my grilled chicken mushroom sth... droolicious

chillin at starbucks before meetin family for dinner...

i love you mummie

it's acap's fault we look like this.. cos we were suppressin our laughter!!

finally.. a nice pix of us.. hehe

with acap.. i look so arrogant... muka mcm nak kena smack!

sniffin... dun ask me why!!

laid out on the table... gettin a sugar high juz by lookin

cupcakes in the box... looks too good to eat! & i requested those shoes & bags cos im such a shoe & bag lover... hehe

:: 22nd Birthday... magnifique! ::

so yesterday was the day i turned a year older.
it felt the same but it was fun! & wonderful of coz.. =)
collected my cupcakes from amk in the mornin, bf came over to well, juz take photos with me & eat the cupcake (hehe) & of coz.. wait for me to get ready.
i love you so much sayang.
left my place in our search for my b-dae prezzie.
surprisingly i didn't take a long time like i normally do since i noe wat i wanna get in mind.
mummie's like... dun ask for too much, kesian dier...
yar i noe... im not materialistic.
if i really wan sth ex, i'll get it myself.
or maybe ask from mum. hehe.
anwyay, i've not taken my pix of the prezzie yet but it's sooo pretty. i like!!
wil take photos of it soon...
a dkny watch. so elegant.
but noe wat??
i love the card he gave me even more than any diamond or gucci & fendi bags that he can buy me.
cos it comes from his heart.
super sweet. i juz melted... like butter under the blazin sun.
mum gave me my prezzie 1 mth in advance. the current digicam im usin rite now.
u see, this girl keeps complainin to her mum that her previous digicam wasn't good enuf so mum says okay, wil get me a new one. haha... bf says... ANAK MANJA!
if dad was ard, lagilar menjadi-jadi. haha...
so im contented. more than contented. im thankful.
thankful for the wonderful family i hav & havin had the wonderful opportunity of meetin bf. & of coz... the wonderful circle of frenz i hav albeit a small group.
i love everyone of you.
i never knew i could love as much as this.
it amazes me at times.
love is simply amazin.

we met my family for dinner at secret recipe at ps where the food was good but the service wasn't too great. i could hav been even more rude to that irritatin minah waitress but mum won't condone such behaviour. mum's more sarcastic than me tho. & she'll kick up a greater fuss. im more direct. i'll juz shoot off my mouth.
but i've forgotten to take photos!! too bz eatin..
mum's cheesecake was good & my ice-cream was huge. our ice-cream actually. bf & i shared one. cos we were super full. & of coz, we, the mushroom lovers, had the same dish. heh.
family left for home & bf & i left on our own.
& in the end, reached home ard 4 this mornin.
so all in all, it had been a great day.
nothin more to ask for.
b-dae spent with bf & family. lurvely.

so tomoro, it's back to reality.
but i've got lots of vouchers cos it's my b-dae month so all these beauty parlours are sendin me vouchers.
so temptin to hop down & grab some stuff.
kiehl's gave me a $10 voucher, it's double points for SKII... etc.
sighz. but it's juz not the right time.
exams are comin!!
so i gotta resume my revision tomoro.
tonyte, im juz takin a break. haha... actually, hav been takin a break for a few days already.
too xcited over my b-dae.
but tomoro, it's gonna be the real deal.

& yes, im back to missin bf.
i love you baby...
thx for the wonderful day we had yesterday *mwackz*

P/S: ayang, if you think im old, you're even older!! haha...

my 2 lovable wacko frenz... love you babes!! *hugz*

narcissistic me

from the other angle... hehe

after a long day... in bus 96, on the way home

tryin to re-enact the pix in the frame. tapi tak menjadi. the only diff was my hair was blonde, 'asy had long hair & wana didn't look like her kepala was senget!! haha...