It's surprising that the jitters are here. Presumably, I thought that it only comes to one the night before... got that from talks with friends.
Truth be told, I'm nervous.
Not about the wedding itself, but about marriage.
It's a serious word that I wouldn't say, didn't have an impact on me before.
Marriage is a huge thing, and of course I thought about it a great deal before agreeing to take the plunge.
But now that it's nearing, this whole marriage thingee suddenly seems a lot bigger than it was to me before.

The responsibilities of a wife (gulp...), managing a household, weird stories that I've been hearing of domestic helpers lately... they're stressing me up.
Question is... Am I Ready?
I thought I was.
I have this theory where if I don't try it, I'll never know how ready I am for a certain task.
But this, this is unlike all the other tasks that I've undertaken before.

I need to have faith, in myself, in us.
Please.

Why do I get the feeling that he's not what he seems to be?
No, it's not the fiance. It's a friend here I'm talking about.

Anyway, my guest list is done! Like finally...
1 less thing to worry about.
While people were busy eating their oranges on the 1st day of the lunar new year, we were busy passing invites to our relatives.
And don't you just wish that the holidays were longer?
Anyway, my dad's sisters were pretty much in shock to know that I'm getting married!
Cos they think that I'm still very young. They kept asking me how old I was.
I'm turning 25 in April! And my mum keeps saying she already has 1 child i.e. me, when she was 25.
My dad's the youngest you see, so I think, his sisters always feel that his children are all still super young. My eldest cousin from my dad's side, is 2 years younger than my mum.

I'm suffering from gastric flu. Like again.
Got it on new year's eve. Got caught under the rain.
I'm super sensitive to rain. Hate gettin the virus cos it makes me feel so crappy!
I'm nauseous all the time, and I hate to sleep in the whole day cos I'll feel worse when I wake up. I was given an MC for yesterday but I went to school and by 12 noon, I was about to faint. My world was spinning.
Went to the doctor again to get an MC for today instead. So today, I'm being a good girl and staying home.

Oh and I was looking at the calendar the other day and it struck me that the date was nearing... so soon!
I just never realised how soon it was!
I'm not panicking, just a little jittery.
A whole change in .. oh... everything!.. and sometimes I wonder if I'm ready for it.
Scary thought...

I'm just going on and on and on cos I've not penned my thoughts in so long and now, everything is coming out faster than I can organise my thoughts. Fortunately the hand moves as fast as the thoughts in the brain. I'm thinking of catching Bride Wars. A chick flick, I know.
Something that I definitely think the fiance is not interested to watch.
That's okay, I'll get Mum to go watch with me.
And Nina too.
And maybe the bro since he's just returned from his 3-week stint in New Zealand.
He says it's a beautiful place. Maybe I can probably head there for the honeymoon in June.
We'll see.

Aunty Faridah's going to France tomorrow. I'm thinking of getting her to buy an LV bag for me. But I just bought another bag this year. That's like this month.
When I suddenly thought about saving up for a watch instead as I was browsing through my magazine last night. I've always loved Omega. I saw one the other day which was about 5K.
Maybe if I stop buying bags for a few months, I may just save enough money to get myself a watch.
Definitely workable. I just need to stop peeking into every bag shop.
Then again, I've been eyeing that Chanel bag for quite some time too.
S$4 600.
I don't know how much it costs in Paris.
Now, I need to buy myself one of those boards where I can list down my wants according to priority.
It'll probably go something like this:

1. Omega watch Chanel bag Omega watch
2. Chanel bag
3. LV Neverfull

Desires, desires...

Oh and my VS stash came in like a week! Thrilled! *beamz*

It's been 2 weeks of school and a few changes have taken place.
For one, my school lappie has been changed! It's not the latest but at least it's not the bulky scrap metal that I've been carrying around for the past 6 mths or so.
My personal lappie is T61 but the school gave me an X60. Still, better than NOT changing, right?
So yayness!

I've got to head down to the bridal place later to pick out the outfits.
9 outfits. God, help me.
Need to pop by the sports hall in a while to take a look at the badminton boys.
I've been running and running since the start of the day.
Running around I mean.
Told you this year my duties list have just skyrocketed through the roof.

I'm praying this enrichment thingee is approved and I can circulate the letter.
I've not refined the ppt presentation I'm supposed to present in like I dunno when.
But I do know it's in a few weeks' time.
Aaargh!
And all that wedding stuff to finalise.

Okay, before I go completely out of my mind, I need to relieve my bladder.

Love, me.

School has started yet again but no one I know is ready for it.
All of us are hoping for an extra week of break or so.
Heh.
In our dreams.

This year will be one busy year for me.
Involved in a few events more on top of what I have been doing last year.
And I'm still preparing for the wedding.
Pretty much have my plate full these days.

Anyway I'm so not looking forward to Monday, which is tomorrow...
Oh the agony.
At least my timetable this sem is better than last sem.

I had tons to blog about last week but I can't seem to get any of my thoughts down now.
An early start tomorrow so I gotta turn in super early today. That is if I can actually sleep that early.
Plan to reach school by 6.30 tomorrow morning.
Crazy huh?
I have to, to avoid the crazy traffic.

Sweet dreams people.