I was struck speechless, not exactly dumb, when I heard the words coming out of this person.
I've never met someone who's so obsessed with her looks before. Vanity, sure. Who isn't?
It's different when I grew up with the mentality that one must be educated, successful in life vs sadly to say, a bimbo.
You know... the all beauty but no brains syndrome.
Seriously, this explains the zilch connection between us.
I doubt she likes me much anyway. I saw that look. But well, who cares?
I'm right smack where I wanna be and of course, aspire to be more and I don't think you've any aspirations at all, which in my opinion, is tragic.
Thank God it's a yearly affair. I'm not ready to mingle with these people on a frequent basis.
It takes too much effort to just sit and smile.

Anyway, my craving for all things chocolatey, ice-creamy and waffley may just come true in a while. Hehe.
It's half-priced Tuesday, so why shouldn't I indulge?

I've been wanting to change the skin to this blog but I simply don't have the time.
Aaaargh.. I hate it when I don't have the time to do things that I want to!
I thought that with the submission of psych paper earlier today, I'd feel free-er.
Boy, how wrong can I get! Science lit reviews are beckoning to me to start on them!

Okay, okay, I'll get started on them tomorrow! Finish up the slides to my presentation, start writing something, anything, for the lit reviews and I should be well on my way to study for the upcoming exams which starts next Sat!
Do you now know why I'm panicking?
Cos my assignments and 2 of my exams dates are on the same dates!
Aaaaargh!

I need to talk to the fiance into going for a short trip after all this madness is over.
I can't take it!
This entry has tons of energy to reflect my anxiety. Haha.
I'm not the type to procrastinate but I still find that I am barely surviving to complete the assignments.
It's the workload of the assignments. Tons of faith has been bestowed upon us but please spare us the confidence cos we can really do without the overwhelming amount of workload. Overwhelming seems understated somehow.

Sometimes, I feel so unhappy, stressed & all things negative that do nothing to boost your self-esteem when I'm bombarded with thoughts of how sucky life is since I entered this place. But I'm grateful and thankful for the presence of friends like Haz, Ramadhan and James who keep me sane when the going gets real tough.

Please let me get through this sem in one piece...well in both mind & body

Received my 2nd Math test on Friday... satisfying results for that too. *beamz*
Gives a whole new meaning to the term "weekend".

The week starts again tomorrow but with a much lighter schedule from this week onwards. With 4 hours break in between lessons, I'm so tempted to not attend school tomorrow. I'm forcing myself to attend school tomorrow since...

1. I've to submit my psych paper.
2. I need to research on the Science paper.

And it helps that there'll be no more 8.30 a.m. lessons for 3 days a week!
Yippee!
No more waking up at unearthly hours!

Hopefully with a lighter schedule, I can squeeze in a few work out sessions before school.
I'm all ready for school tomorrow as I've worked out what needs to be done and what can be completed before this week ends.
I need to recharge... and I bid you good night...

I have somewhat an idea of where to eat tomorrow for our anniversary.
I just haven't informed him yet. Haha.
He's pretty easy though, so I don't think it's gonna be a problem.
I've not gotten the medium to express my thoughts i.e. card/letter/postcard/anything that can be used to write on. I need to remind myself to get that tomorrow!
I wouldn't say I'm forgetful, it's just that I'm too preoccupied! It only happens when I'm at you-know-where.

Anyway, had my Math PP i.e. presentation. Went pretty well, pretty good comments & most importantly, it's a load off my mind. With Ed Psych presentation tomorrow, this week is gonna turn out to be great! Lots of assignments are struck out of the to-do list! Math test held on Monday has been returned and marks obtained are better than expected so I'm pretty smiley. The other paper will only be returned this Friday... hopefully that's gonna turn out alright too.

I don't plan to do any work tonight simply because I'm too tired.
I'm ready to crash any time now...

The fiance's 26th birthday yesterday went great even though I didn't surprise him with anything. It was dinner at our favourite joint, Straits Kitchen. We've been there a few times for different occasions since it's opening. We initially thought of Carousel cos he's not eaten there before but the food's so-so. Nothing special to me. Tiffany's pretty normal too. So it's back to Straits Kitchen! Never fails to satisfy us!

The night ended at 3 this morning. And during those hours I was with him, I must have wished him Happy Birthday like a gazillion times! Haha. His birthday's important to us cos it brings back sweet, old memories. Next important event of the month is our anniversary. I've not planned anything for it which is unlike the other 8 anniversaries. I think we've grown out of the 'surprise' celebration for birthdays and anniversaries. Instead we go for romantic dinners and indulge more in us-time. Ultimately, it's the time spent together that's important, even if it was just listening to each other's heartbeats. And over the years, we have adopted the shop-for-prezzie-together scheme. Haha. It's much easier and more satisfying this way.

However, somehow, being a girl, I'm not sure if it's a girl thing, I'm still thinking of ways to surprise him on our anniversary. What is it that I can do to make this 9th anniversary a special one? I'm left with approximately 24 hours to think of the possibilities. Oh and of course, deciding on the ideal place to eat becomes mind-boggling too.

Help?

I'm at the library cafe now. I just had my sandwich and tea for lunch. This place is secluded hence it's a great place to have lunch when everyone else is fasting! Haha... It's a great shift from eating in public to eating in seclusion for me. Hehe. Used to just eat in the canteen or the forum at NUS... tsk.

I'm tired of refining my ICT slides. Gonna just mail them to Christine and see what else she can input. It's basically the layout. Clearer instructions need to be given cos you, as a teacher, may not be around. pffft.

Stomach's been queasy since morning but I've yet to pop in the pill today. Bearable pain. =)

I'm supposed to be studying Math now but I'm so not in the mood.
I'm in discomfort. It's the stomach.

Guess I better go do something more constructive like editing my psych essay since it's all stored in this laptop. Work resumes... again.

When will it ever stop?

I've been so lethargic today. And I do not have the mood to do any work at all during weekends.
So what did I do today?

I wove ketupats. Yes, it's the only domestic thing that I can do.
I can't cook, bake, cut and I hardly clean.
Weaving ketupats is the closest thing to being a girl that I can do. Haha!
Although lately, I've heard of guys being able to weave them too & making money out of it!
So maybe, it's not such a girly thing to do after all. I agree that it's geared more towards culture but it's pretty fun.

And fun is the precise thing that I need to steer me away from my depressed emotional self today.
Being a girl is complicated. Don't you agree?

Iftar-ing at JB was one hell of an experience. Traffic was bad, no, excruciatingly congested. It was so jammed up that my back ached. Thank god I wasn't driving but I pitied him. I've driven manual cars and got stuck in congestions before. It was hellish. My legs were asking for mercy. I could really feel muscles forming in my left leg after that.

Anyway, back to the experience. Food sucked and service was bad. Management sucks big time too. So much for it being a 5* hotel. I won't go into details but that's just to sum things up. As my dad would put it, never trust the Malays to do anything right. I totally agree dad.

But it's not just all about food. Thanks Hazry for inviting me to join. Thanks to the fiance's family for the experience. I kinda had a road trip around JB. Chicken me will never drive up to JB. Mum won't allow it anyway. Spent most of the time with his parents as we were in one car while the others were in the other car. I made an effort to speak in Malay but somehow, I reverted back to English half the time so much so that I felt kinda squirmish when his dad started talking to me in English. The drive up gave me a chance to get to know his family deeper after 9 years of being together. And they in turn, get to know me better I guess. I didn't talk much although I no longer have that terrified feeling towards his dad. That has been a huge improvement in my point of view.

Thank you for everything.

I am so tired of doing the assns. I've yet to study for the Math test cos there's so many changes to be done after consultation with the tutors simply becos it's not what they wanted becos in the first place, they did not specify! Sighz. Math test has been postponed to the Monday after next, which I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not. Cos it's the Monday just after the festival which means I may be tired. So it's still best to start on it this week, which translates to starting on it tomorrow.

I'm simply so drained.

Can I have a break, you inconsiderate bunch of people?

It's almost 4 in the morning & I feel so good for having accomplished 3 tasks tonight: math presentation, ict slides and almost done with the ed psych essay (I can't think of what to write for limitations). But my head is spinning right now. Bleagh.

Anyway, if anyone has any interesting daily phenomena to share with me, please leave me a tag, yeah? I've only 2 examples so far: floating metal i.e. ship and flying metal i.e. airplane. I'm trying to source for another 2 at least?

And I met my love for coffee at about 9 just now. So I'm feeling quite trigger happy! *beamz* This adds on to my list of accomplished tasks cos I'm missing him quite bad the past few days, no thanks to my crappy schedule.

Thought this reading week was gonna be a stressful one but it's turning out quite fine actually. I'm planning to start on the science individual presentation tomorrow. Hopefully that's done by tomorrow too. Then I can finally start studying for my Math test on Monday!

And of course, when this madness is done, I still have to somehow squeeze in time to clean my room i.e. putting away my books and notes instead of having them all over my bedroom floor cos I keep pushing them from my bed to the floor. It's piling up like crazy but I kinda like this organised mess cos I know where to look for what.

It's time for me to bid good night as the clock ticks away. I still have to wake up at 5 later. I've about an hour left to get some sleep... zzz...