Dreaded sleepiness

i've been up since dawn cos i can't sleep after subuh prayers. now im checkin on my bids which is super troublesome!! this is sooo typical spore lifestyle i tell u. u wanna buy a house, u bid. u wanna buy a car, u bid for the CoE. now u wanna study, u bid for the mods. okay, it's gonna be last sem so wat the hell. juz indulge in it for the last time. but im sooo sleepy...


but i've had breakfast so im pretty happy. haha..food really does wonders. had kacang pool for breakfast. yeaps! bibik made it. im one of those ppl who can't go without breakfast & it must be homemade. i can't do with bought food. haha...fussy. now im online infront of the telly. caught dexter, oprah, & now, a pup named scooby doo.speakin of telly, i got a dvd player for my room since the vcd cum stereo player in my room is spoilt. only the radio is functionin. so yayness! no more battles with my siblings for tv in the living room. nina is always watchin cable & acap's always watchin soccer on & dvds. now im juz waitin for acap to get his own tv so he can play his xbox & ps2 in his room. but mie's not gettin him one til he cleans up his pigsty of a room!


im really into project runaway these days altho im not into much tv unless u count local chinese serials cos i can't stand the foreign china accent. so blardy irritatin. anyway, back to pjct runaway. I HATE WENDY. gawd. she's a connivin bitch & one hell of a cow. she's sooo freakin ugly to start off with, paired with no sense of team spirit & it doesn't help that she looks so blardy freakin old at 40. & i hate her hair. she gloated at the team's failure the last week. gawd, i hate her. i could juz smack her if she was right in front of my face. at least the other 3 participants were frenz even tho they're in a competition against each other. but i do like austin. he looks like such a pretty boy. =) but ultimately, it's all about pleasin one's client & lettin ure creativity flow thru. not like that STUPID, SENSELESS show mie was watchin 2 nytes ago. she juz happened to switch to channel 5 & they were featurin america's next top model. i swear i hav no idea wat on earth they're lookin for in a model. looks? not all of them are blessed with looks. they're all juz tall, lanky & dumb. gawd the answers they gave durin the interview after their photoshoots. "in my family, we hav this thing called the beauty gene". that's sooo bimbo lar! & she's out. haha...prob too dumb to even pass off as a model. not that they're very bright to start off with. & the judges. gawd. i dun even noe where to start. i can't stand the black gay guy. he's juz so gay. ultimate.


i've been super happy these holidays cos i've been shoppin for the past wk!! haha...since mie's on leave. been shoppin almost everyday. went to the pvt isetan sale on wednesday & totally splurged but sales's a huge mess. & not losin out is acap as well. i really try not to spend but it's hard. but of all the things i've bought, well, mum bought for me, i've not had time to stock up on my clothes. the clothes are juz super ugly durin sales. i dunno why. maybe it's old stock that they juz rummaged thru the store & dumped them in the shops. well, mum said that. cos i was complainin that the clothes were so ugly. or maybe i haven't been visitin the right shops.


graced bf's pop last nyte with his parents. haha..i make it sound like im some big shot or sth. well, i attended it with his parents. aray & gang came down too. the 5 stooges. short & sweet ceremony but they should really sue the MCs, esp the girl, who had terrible pronounciation, bad MC skills, the list goes on. im not bein biased. even bf & frenz agreed. it seemed like a terrible humiliation since the commander was present. anyway, the food was great. i liked the vege esp even tho it was a lil diff to eat with plastic cuttlery. stamford caterin. meetin bf for dinner today. yay!!


ooooh...& i had breakouts. it's stopped now. i tried some detox thingee which is supposed to be healthy for ure body & naturally, it causes breakouts since it's detox. but i got so freaked out by it. told myself, that's it. no more detox shits for me cos im breakin out & i've rashes everywhere else. it's much better these past few days. so healthy or not, im backin out. i'll juz stick to the 'unhealthy' lifestyle after it's all cleared up thank you.


i gotta go bathe i guess. i need to accompany kak ina to jean yip cos she wans my recommendations to chop off her hair. told her to visit jean yip cos i trust the hairstylists. & maybe ask kak ina to pay for a trim for me as well. haha! yar rite. fat hope. okay, toodles!!

xmas came & went. i had a great time the past wkend! caught chronicles of narnia on sat. oooh...i bumped into shahid & hartini at tampines. they were in the same cinema as us! small world...haha.


spent xmas with my mum & nina. had dinner at swensens & then we took the train down to raffles place & walked to clifford pier. snapped quite a no of pix along the way. stone men, merlion & the esplanade were the highlights of the nyte. haha! then we had drinks at the cafe which was a total RIP OFF!! the drinks were charged twice the price that you would find in 7-11 stores. & it wasn't even starbucks or dome or the likes...oh well, we were thirsty. & that's the place we pulled farnie faces. =) told mie to join in but mum's a pretty serious person. haha! in a good way of coz. abang wan described me perfectly in my frenster testimonial: she has the temper of her father & the seriousness of her mother. guess my cuz juz noes me too well.


we went xmas visitin today. which was okay but that pretty much sums up the whole day. but it was great no doubt bout that. xcept for the start of the day where abg dan called me on my phone at 11 in the freakin mornin & woke me up to check sth for him. & then, i couldn't go back to slp. i was sooo cranky. i hate bein woken up in the mornin!!


anyway, i've a dental appt tomoro mornin. some routine thingee. goin with mie since she's on super loooong leave til the 3rd of jan. & i dunno wat else is planned for tomoro. it may be juz another day spent at home. haha...which is good in a way cos im never home on wkends!!


alritez...im off!!

more of us... hehe 

the blurry esplanade 

obsessed with the merlion 

it was supposed to be the esplanade at the background but it was too dark to be seen 

more stone men pix 

playin with the stone men 

after dinner at swensens...comes the delectable dessert. yumz!! 

another one of those self-portraits 

the merlion *blurred*, courtesy of my phone 

my hair is out of shape, hair colour looks washed out... i badly need to visit the salon!! 

Kiasuism??

booked tix for chronicles of narnia for this sat. kiasu? hmmm...maybe. but im juz playin safe cos it's gonna be the eve of xmas. & no. im sooo not goin to town this wkend. hav plans to spend the day at the suburbs - queensway. haha... it's not so bad. rite? catchin the show at tampines tho. not sure if there's actually enuf time to travel. wil worry bout that later. it's not like i wanna get anythin at queensway. so it's no biggie.


mie & nina plannin to watch it tomoro nyte but think i'll give it a miss. most prob meetin bf tomoro nyte anyway. im feelin so xcited over tomoro. i dun noe why!! it's not like i've sth special planned or sth. it's weird i tell u. maybe it's juz thinkin bout meetin him that gets me xcited. =)


u noe how frenster has this 'about me' under its profile settings rite?? was juz thinkin bout that. wat can i really say bout me? at the discretion & privacy of my personal blog of coz. well, for a start, i think i look arrogant. or maybe i am. at times. esp wen i encounter certain types of ppl. i juz hav this look & attitude towards them. but i think im pretty okay wen ppl get to noe me. haha! i dun noe...wat do u guys think??
secondly, i treasure my frenships cos i dun hav many frenz to start off with.


& im hopelessly in love with bf which makes me feel afraid at times. yeah, even tho after 7 yrs, i stil feel that way. i can't xplain why. sometimes my mind runs wild & i'll think of the most ridiculous & depressin stuff. at other times, im all xcited & hyper daydreamin over promises & proclamations. only time wil tell i guess. & it feels like im growin up too fast. 1 more sem to go & that's the end of skul life for me. time really does fly. i wanna continue with my studies & earn myself a masters & PhD but im not sure if time & circumstances wil actually permit me to do so. i've a responsibility towards my family, bf & my heart. it's not as easy as it seems to juz pack up & go. mum wil be okay with that so that's pretty settled. but im not sure if i can leave everythin else behind for a few yrs. im not confident of that even tho a part of me yearns to leave & explore new sights & sounds. another part of me however, is not willin to do so unless HE accompanies. emotions play a big role. 1-2 yrs may not seem like such a short time if loneliness surrounds me. unless i do it here, in spore. but it's so BORING. then there's the family talk. can i pursue my studies if im tied down with a family?? i dun noe... it's juz that i feel it's better to pursue my dreams before i tie the knot. but can he wait?? i can't answer for that. & im not too sure if i can wait that long either since it's gonna take quite a no. of yrs to further my studies after a few yrs of work xperience & then carve out a career. & finally earn a comfortable wage to start a family. there's a rumble of emotions goin thru me rite now but i can't explain it in words.


to a certain fren of mine, i understand it must be tuff goin thru wat u did. & i wish there's sth that i can do. but i can only lend u a listenin ear & pray that everythin wil turn out fine at the end. but u've gotta learn to let go & embrace this life & all that it's gotta offer u with open arms. i hope u find wat ure searchin for... it's all a matter of time. i love u *hugz* & there's no other way that i can xpress myself apart from those 3 cliched words.


lookin forward to tomoro. juz not sure if i can slp tonyte. these days i can never turn in early...






I love you Ayang. even more than i did 7 yrs ago. & i pray i'll always feel the same bout u... & pray that u love me too.


gd nyte everyone.

results are out! & my cap score has increased by 0.05 which is okay i guess. the only terrible grade i got is a C for chinese 2. kinda xpected. actually im pretty glad i got a c. haha!! yes, it was that tuff...since the exam only accounts for 40% of the total grade. but... it's over. & im cool with it. happy with the rest of the mods. =)


went for a swim this mornin. thinkin of goin out but dunno where to go. thinkin of headin to suntec cos im sooo sick of orchard. & the crowd... gawd. but then, i juz feel so lazy today. maybe tomoro then. cos i can go look at bras & panties at suntec & stock up on my collection, pay a visit to haslinda at starbucks if she's workin of coz & hopefully get a free drink(!)...haha.cheapskate. nah...kiddin.pay her a visit to say hi of coz. & prob shop ard a lil. that's wen the prob starts...im tryin not to spend!! grrr...this is sooo annoyin i tell u. this is wat happens wen i've nothin to do. i need to shop. maybe i should juz hop down to the lib tomoro to borrow some books to keep my mind off shoppin.


hmmm...then again, im not done with cleanin up my room. stil hav loads to do since i've been on the laptop since i got back from my swim. & it doensn't help that im feelin hungry now even tho i've had lunch. nina's away... cateling in chinatown. guess, im gonna grab sth from the fridge or the cabinet, if i can find anythin of coz, & keep myself bz with cleanin up. oraitz...gotta zoom off. tata!

Cleared?? well...almost

wooden shelves and dressin table are cleared & i finally cleared my cupboard. well, almost. left with the other half. too tired to clear everythin at one go. cos i was killin two birds with one stone. was teachin nina & clearin my cupboard at the same time. haha..cos mie said she saw no reason why i couldn't teach nina & clear my cupboard at the same time.


boy oh boy. there's juz sooo much stuff lar!! & i didnt' noe i had that many bras, thongs & panties!! cos they were juz scattered everywhere in the drawer before this. i hav like more than 20 bras, about 30 pieces of underwear & other miscellaneous stuff which i can't categorize them. haha... the wonders of spring cleaning. & wen i cleared my clothes; took down those that i'd never wear & folded those that were too old, my cupboard had some space to breathe. & at the back of my mind, i was goin like...hey, now i can stock up on more clothes since there's more space. this is a vicious cycle i tell u. the cupboard is forever goin to be jam packed if i keep buyin clothes to fill it up. then there's the left hand side of the cupboard which is filled with dresses, skirts, cardigans, jackets, etc. haven't taken a look at that side of the cupboard. another clearin day tomoro. but hav promised nina to go swimmin tomoro mornin. spring cleaning wil juz hav to wait. but i better not procrastinate too much or this spring cleanin mood will vanish quicker than u can say "presto".


then there's the cupboard beneath my tv, my cd racks & the white bookshelf to go. okay, breathe. take things s-l-o-w-l-y. clear one corner at a time. & im plannin to buy a shoe rack to place in my room. frinn bought hers from ikea & i think it's a gd idea. gotta get my shoes out of the store so they won't be stacked upon & destroy the surface. i juz need to gather my shoes first so i'd noe how big or small the shoe rack should be to accomodate to the number.


finally doin sth productive durin the hols. oh can't wait for wkends tho! on top of missin bf, chronicles of narnia is screenin this wk & bf & i are plannin to watch it! wil prob book for tix in advance since it's the eve of xmas this sat. it's sure to be jam-packed. gettin into the kiasu syndrome huh??


hmmm...im cravin for corn with coconut. wil prob go get it tomoro. im startin to crave again...which is not good. anyway, results wil be released tomoro. im waitin for time to tick til 3pm tomoro...juz pray i get satisfyin results. okay, gotta hit the bed since i gotta wake up in the mornin tomoro to visit the club for a swim. nytez ppl!!

got my new phone juz now! pretty... i like! =) thx to mummie dearest. flowery design. Nokia 7360. wanted to get the 7370 but it was the swing-swing type & i didn't really like it after playin ard with it. too troublesome & after some time, think it'll prob be separated from the body at the rate im swingin it. so im happy now. yes. hee!


oh & i met yan last nyte in front of taka entrance. she looks great!! she lost so much weight & lookin so divine. stil sweet...hav missed her. she's headin to aussie in feb to continue her studies. everyone's doin that these days!!


actually, im not supposed to be online now. im supposed to clean up my room!! my shelves, cupboard (especially) & well, basically the room. but im sooo lazy to move my ass. & it doesn't help that im plannin to go for a swim tomoro. i'll be flat out after the swim. my room is sooo freakin messy now. no, mie's not screamin for me to do it cos she basically juz leaves me alone. she doesn't tell me to clean my room & watnots. thank gawd for that. can't live with a naggy mum. love my mummie to pieces. i juz find my room an eyesore. notes, books, clothes, cds, chargers...everywhere. & the cupboard looks like a junkyard. makes it difficult to find clothes. aaargh. gotta do sth bout it...soon!! okay, wil def do. wen i hav the time.


as for now, think i'll juz make do with this post. think i'll get crackin on cleanin up my room. wil start with sth easy like the shelves i guess...

phone's givin me prob again. went out with mummie for a while juz now to check out the phones. gonna get one tomoro cos maybe headin to orchard to get it at the boutique. no time today since my schedule is packed & so is mie. think i really need a new phone & this time round, it really is a need...


gonna meet bf soon to catch a movie & whatnots. feelin a lil tired, back is hurtin a lil maybe cos i woke up early this mornin ard 11. oh well, it's a sat. i'll sleep til late tomoro to make up for the tiredness i guess.


done with 'behind the burqa' 2 nytes ago & started on 'mirage' last nyte. but i got home a lil late & was too tired to carry on readin. tonyte would be a guarantee no-no to continue readin since im not sure wat time i'll be back. but i'll def finish the book in 1 day. need to get new bks soon. i hate to drag my reads cos im always anxious to find out how it ends so i always almost finish readin a book a day. so there's no point in me buyin books. better for me to rent or borrow from the lib but the skul lib is outrageously useless since they only hav reference bks.


hmmm...it's almost 3. guess i better bathe & change. dun wanna be late. njoy the wkends ppl!!

i can be sooo muddleheaded sometimes. noe wat?? it's the 15th today!! & i thot 15th is on saturday. so mango sale starts today. received the flyer in the mail. & i thot the sale starts on a friday. that's wat happens wen it's the skul hols. i lose track of my days & dates cos everyday is a sunday!! haha... yar... sure.


i did leave the house earlier with my fav sister. well, she's the only one i hav. went to purchase ice-cream!! yumz!! & walked ard town for a little while...


am supposed to be surfin ard for hotel deals for malaysian islands but i dunno why the internet connection to certain webbies are so slow ever since mie bought the new pcs with a new router. so im bein very patient here... but it's thinnin. too used to click, load, ready. oh well, that's wen bloggin comes in handy.


acap & i are the perfect epitome of lazyness. now we talk to each other via msn cos we're too lazy to travel wen our rooms are juz beside each other. then there's the issue of the phone where mie calls our mobiles cos it's more convenient rather than walkin to the room. the things technology does to us. & it's not like im livin in a double storey house. our rooms are facin one another!! oh well, that's technology for us i guess. in a way, we can't live without them. i gotta admit we need technology. without it, we're like blind mice. who in this day & age can leave home without the mobile?? not many i bet. that emphasises the existence of technology in our lives. juz like the other day wen my mobile needed repair, i was practically whinin to mie to get me a new one cos i can't live without one. "i'd die without it!! it's the key to my social life!" haha..it sounds dramatic cos i really needed mie to get me a new one, but it's true too!


have completed 3 out of 5 novels which i chucked them in one corner due to exam period the other time. i've completed the shopaholic series & some vampire book quite some time back & startin on a more serious book. i love readin serious books actually. haha...not wat one would call fiction but it's not as dry as non-fiction. 'behind the burqa' tells the story of afghan women & their struggles. the escape from the rigid muslim life & the xperiences of strayin from the orthodox point of view of the community. interestin. there's another one with acap now. pretty similar story of afghan women but more fictatious whereas this one is based on a true account. if anyone is interested in this genre, u can try readin 'wild swans' which talks of the communism period in china. read that few yrs back, in sec skul i think, but i've been readin it over & over again. it's really good!!


& i bought cleo earlier so there's another material for me to read. im readin everythin that i lay my hands on these days cos im tryin not to fall back to slp cos i juz woke up!! i slp too much & i need to curb that.


u noe, sometimes i feel like i only live on wkends. literally. that's the time that im the most energetic & xcited & happy & have a life basically!! 2 more days til the wkends but i hope to meet bf tomoro nyte if he's not tired. i miss him. this feels like a ritual. i miss him everytime he goes back in. but work's important too. shucks..im ramblin. which means im bored. gonna indulge in ice-cream. tata!

didn't do much today. basically spent the whole day in front of the screen; between telly & the laptop. altho i woke up pretty late...haha...hols...usual. i really need to get out... maybe tomoro.


feelin a lil down now after a conversation with someone. i pray things turn out better soon. this gets depressin...sighz.


mango sale is on this friday but im not sure if i should go. reason no. 1 - im tryin to save my money for the comin bangkok trip. reason no. 2 - i never buy durin sales so it's a waste of my time. the last time i was at a mango sale this year, i was stuck in the shop for 6 hrs mind u, from 10-4, & i bought ONE red cardigan which i hardly wore even tho i got it a good bargain. so im wonderin if i should go this time round.


i really hav nothin to say & nothin to do. guess i'll juz go...maybe find sth to eat. better than doin nothin.

pretty xmas tree 

fav snack these days...orange & cereal 

okay...ferz i had a hard time loggin in to blogger.com. now i can't choose the font & colour & stuff. weird...


anyway, mum's pc came today. with acap's of coz. same model. mum's an avid HP fan. haha... so finally, my laptop is back to where it belongs: my room. no more stradlin between mum's room & acap's room ever since the pc kaput some time back. acap's blastin music as usual, & i feel it's gonna be worse now since the pc's there permanently. mum's workin on her pc now: work. she's gonna be workin on her pc at odd times of the day i foresee. hmmm...


mie took leave today. headed to town, had fun, the usual. went to check out the phones cos mie's gettin me a new one. yay! juz can't seem to decide tho...so i didn't get any. wil prob get one on sat or sun. checked out the N70 from nokia. a beauty...but pricey. a whoppin 700 bucks (almost) with 2 yrs contract. woah...


met up with frinn yesterday. had a fabulous time! food...shoppin/window-shoppin...more food..more walkin. hehhe... & she had a manicure done with a gorgeous colour to top it off! plum...yum! shld hav taken a photo of it. it was pretty =) was supposed to be lookin ard for a mascara & some makeup set but... mie went shoppin on sat & she got me all i needed: mascara, eye pallette. she was buyin her makeup from lancome & the redemption of free gift required an expenditure of 160. so she bought the makeup set which comes with a gorgeous red, velvet makeup box. so my wish came true. haha...


ooooh...& im headin to bangkok nxt month! flight & hotel's confirmed. can't wait. juz need to getaway. but mie's takin leave again after xmas. she was sayin sth like headin to bintan or some spa resort for a few days so that's another break for me. but that's not confirmed. oh well...we'll see. anyway, mum wil hand me the card which she's been keepin, for my trip to bangkok. hehe...which is supposed to be used in emergency situations. =) & xtra cash from her. *double beamz* i think i've curbed my spendin habits real well tho...i only buy wat's needed. altho mie did say i dun need 2 cupboards of clothes which are burstin at the seams & more than 8 pairs of daily footwear even tho i did rebutt & say "they're essential!!" apparently, that's xcessive. clothes, shoes & skincare...my weaknesses. it's tuff bein a girl.


all things pretty & settled, exam results to be released nxt wk. im not jittery. im anxious. can't wait for it to be released. i hate waitin for results. juz give it to me rite there & then!! but then,rules are rules.


anyway, thx to all those who were concerned. feelin much better now..altho im coughin stil. slightly. at least the throat doesn't feel like tar. miss all my frenz too... hav a good hol everyone =)

boy is it hot! get it off me!! now! 

the new recruit of ERS. think i can make it?? nah... 

sisters...close ure mouth nina!! 

yes...i AM that kiasu! or i prefer to use the word...enthusiastic. been checkin out the schedule for next sem's mods & drawin up my timetable to see how my timetable would be like. haha... guess, i juz wan it to go smoothly for nxt sem which may be my laz. hav chosen 4 mods... 1 more to go & i can't decide if i should take a biz mod or a science mod. both don't appeal much to me. but i've no idea wat else to take in arts!! philo sounds scary... hmmm...wil see...


btw random pix to be uploaded...

cramps were terrible today. vomitted...couldn't sit or slp cos it hurt too much. it was overdue. was supposed to come like 2 wks back but i guess i was super tired out from studyin & exams. been slpin the whole day cos i can't really do much. feelin much better now, thankfully.


spent the whole day at bf's place yesterday. was fun even tho we didn't go anywhere. watched dvd, went to the shops & slacked at the void deck, talkin... one of those "tame" saturdays. haha! but great nonetheless.


now that exam's over, im able to start readin again. yay! started on one, but im feelin too tired now. think it's too much sleep. & i need food. there's chicken porridge for lunch, special request specially for me from mummie. ehehe. cos i really couldn't eat anythin earlier...juz vomitted out everythin. can't wait for mie to return from shoppin & hav dinner. thinkin of havin some nice food...dunno wat tho. juz want sth hot & soupy & noodley of coz. not a big fan of rice unless it's porridge.


thinkin of makin chicken sandwich tomoro so gotta head down to the supermarket. but wil hav to ask bibik to buy the chicken cos i hav no idea how to buy it. need the chicken breast. yummz! can't wait to get started on it =) it's one of those rare times where i'll be in the kitchen so it's always an excitin thought. haha...
& hmm....should i get the baguette from delifrance?? or should i juz use the loaf?? think mie's home. heard the key. okiez, gotta go ask her where to go for dinner...

FRIENDSTER IS IRRITATIN THE HELL OUT OF ME!!!
changed the settings but stil no change. grrrr....
gotta check again...maybe later.
too tired now altho i didn't do anythin the whole day. wat else is new??


feels like goin back to sleep. but don't think i'll do that. im juz lazy... baskin in the freedom that i feel rite now.
ta for now...

bein the youngest always benefits doesn't it?? nina's away to some chalet since yesterday. only to come back this sat. wil miss my lil sissy so much. she juz came back from kL. wen i was 14, i wasn't allowed to stay for the nyte at a chalet!! no matter how late it was, i had to go back. so even if it was 5 in the mornin, i went home. in fact mie put her foot down til after sec skul. bro was given the green light slightly earlier i think. hmmph!! anyway, hope nina's havin fun. she was so sweet yesterday. she wished me gd luck for the rest of my papers wen i left for skul.


decided to scrap off part of the previous entry. it was too mean. heck lar... dun really care wat others think of me anyway.


today's THE day. FREEDOM!! for a mth before skul resumes in jan. but..im not gonna think bout that. gonna give it my best for this last paper & hav a hell of a time. meetin bf tonyte! *beamz* hav missed him so. i need to party! it's been too long...haha. not that i really party. juz need a break from skul, from everythin...


alrightey...gotta get ready for skul & i've not eaten my breakfast. i can't wait for ritual paper to end!! =)