I spreed (if there's such a word), on Saturday, buying something from every shop that I popped into. I sent the car for servicing and headed to Tampines to kill time.
I popped into Tampines 1, coming out of it with shopping bags from Outfitter Girls, Dorothy Perkins, Esprit and Uniqlo. Then it was off to Mango at Tampines Mall with 2 pairs of pants of the same cut but in different colours.
I was upset since the night before and spending money seemed to take the pain away.
For a little while.

I'm feeling better now.
I'm looking forward to our date tomorrow night. =)

I'm gonna miss you tonight baby...

Now I'm trying my best to push thoughts of Papillon and Palermo away.
Help.

The 1st week of 2010 is almost over.
Earlier this week, I lamented about how slow time was passing.
But before I knew it, Friday's here! Wow!
And I have so many things to complete over the weekends!
Lesson plans, digirecord, enrichment presentation... Now, I'm stressed.
Okay, let me enjoy my Friday afternoon, then maybe start on something at night.

I'm already thinking of Week 2 and getting depressed that Monday's coming when it's just the start of the weekends.
Can you believe that?
The brain is once again moving ahead much faster than time.

Need to focus: It's Friday! Be happy!

I'm back from Kuching but I'm too lazy to upload the photos.
There are 3 cameras to upload the photos from.
Sighz. That needs tons of patience and perserverence.
I certainly missed the hubby tons when I was there.

I've been feeling troubled since yesterday.
I guess it got triggered off by the call. And I'm right, the dreaded day is tomorrow.
I just want it to be over and done with since everyone has to go through it.
And the other reason why I've been feeling troubled has been put to rest.
So I'm feeling better tonight, but I still dread tomorrow.
And which part of morning does he not understand??
Does 12 p.m. sound like morning to anyone?
Oh well, he's the boss.

Now, I'm simply looking forward to hubby coming home so that I can have some chill out time with him...

I was viewing Ishaq's Phuket photos and they make me wish I could go back there this instant!
Love that place.
I got burnt but that's the least of my worries.
Shopping was cheap, the place was beautiful but we didn't have enough time to really explore the other parts of phuket and go island hopping.
Simply because we only had a 3-day vacation. It was the Deepavali long weekend and I had school the very next day.
That sucked.
Maybe next time we'll go for a 1 week vacaion to Phuket.
Anywhere with hubby is fine actually. =)

I'm hitting the bed again...
I'm getting sleepy.
Maybe I'll dream of Phuket. =)

It's been a great week so far.
I'm thankful for the outcome of things. Alhamdulillah.
I love my hubby.

I've had great makan sessions.
In fact, that's all I've been doing over the holidays.
Shop and eat.
Oh... the shopping. I don't wanna open my bills for next month.
But I've gotten items that make me trigger happy! =)
For one, I've gotten that trilogy pendant which I've been eyeing for quite a while.
Didn't get myself a bag this time round... and that's good!
So far, I don't think I need another bag. I've been pushing thoughts of bags aside. Heh.

I came across this article that talks about women's spending nature on how we spend so much on bags. It would be good if we could actually save that amount of money and make it grow instead of putting that money into buying a bag.
I agree with the article but sometimes, in fact, most of the times, it's difficult for me to do so!
The desire to purchase that bag to make me happy is simply overpowering.
I understand the importance of saving, it's not that I don't save, but I can save MORE if I stop purchasing unnecessarily.
Maybe this will be my 2010's resolution.
Save.
I can make it happen only if I want it to.

Here's to more great times during the December holidays!

I finally found peace.

I've been clearing my desk since I stepped in at 9 this morning.
I've 2 huge trash bags seated by my trash can now.
That's how much junk I've accumulated in 1 year.
What am I going to do for the rest of the day now that I've cleared my department work stuff?
Well, it's not that I've nothing to do... I still have to complete my appraisal form but I'm not in the mood to think about what to write on that form. I'm 3/4 done but have yet to refine.
Just not in the mood.

I chilled with the bro at Starbucks last night.
Staying at home was too depressing.
It felt good to take my mind off things.
We talked, we laughed... But it didn't help in making my heart feel at ease.
There's too much tension between us.
I can sense it even though the anger/frustration has appeased.
I should give him time and space, I know. Which is why dragging myself to work every morning is a good thing although God knows exactly how I feel.
How can I get work done if my whole well-being is affected? Shattering to be exact.
Feeling better today.
Good to get out of home.
But that doesn't mean I brought my heart along with me.
Physical presence but psychological absence.
I'm trying my best. God knows I put my 110% into it.
I'm letting it go, I'm building back the trust that was lost.
I put all my zest and energy into making it work.
I can only pray for the best.

Please don't hurt me... again.