I'm feeling so fucked up.
Things are going from bad to worse.

I'm a racist.
Given a choice, I'll scrap that fucking race off my identification card.
Some things done make me hate them more than ever now.
Stupid MATS (and MINAHS). You guys deserve to be shot.
No.
Make that tortured then shot.
Brainless and useless, what a perfect combination.
What an embarrassing race to be classified under!

Stupid doesn't even describe them.
They're vile, worthless, useless, brainless... Oh I can just go on and on and on.
Basically, they're trash.
Waste of space.
You're not worth my time but the sight and sounds of you just rile me.
FUCK OFF.

I'm excited to meet my dear friend, Hazwani, later. Wish she could have brought her baby but I guess, that wouldn't be a good idea.
I guess I need that psychological break that I haven't had in a long time.

I'm waiting for the boring duty of the day to start.
Invigilation.
Aaaargh. It's worse than a normal day. Much worse.
Usually, I'll be so bored, tears will come to my eyes and start streaming down my face.
It's that bad.

I wanna be happy. But some things are hindering me from feeling that way.
Grant me the strength, faith and trust to carry on in life God.
Please relief me of all this pain...

There're so many things bottled up inside. But I can't seem to release them.
I wish there was some way to. But I can't.
I feel drowned in this sorrow.
The heart feels heavy all the time. I can't bring myself to smile anymore.

Only the tears streaming down my face reveals all the secrets.

It's my first time eating topshell.
A colleague made it and placed it in the fridge.
It was yummy but very spicy. Now, my stomach is burning and growling.
That was about 2 hours ago.
Now, I feel like having somemore!
Maybe I should go buy this topshell from the supermarket and make it myself.
Apparently, it's easy to make.
Famous to boot.
Except I've never heard about it or seen it or eaten it before till today.

I want to go off.
Aaaaarrrrgh.

There's a meeting today after school. Damn.
Was planning to leave early to go buy my stuff for the trip.
Many things that are taking place don't make sense to me.
In fact, I doubt they make sense to many. But people just swallow and get the job done.

I'm feeling the lethargy now.
2 more classes before I'm done for the day.
Had fun with the hubby last night... It was sad it had to end since I have school today.
My plans went according to plan!
*beamz*

Gonna shut my eyes for a bit before going to class.

Drinks with friends tonight... =)

It's hubby's birthday!
Surprised him with a card at midnight last night. =)

Happy Birthday hubby... I pray that all your wishes come true.
May God grant you strength and good health.
I love you baby.

I'm excited over dinner plans and the fact that he doesn't know what I'm buying for him!
He looked so cute last night, with that look on his face... asking me what the gift would be.
Well, if I told him, then it wouldn't be a surprise now, would it?
Can't wait for school to end!
After I mark the test papers of course.
A Maths test has to be administered later... last 3 periods.

Then 1 more day before we fly off!
A getaway... something that I feel we seriously need.
Away from everyone and everything.
Here's to tranquility and fun!
*winkz*

I'm leaving promptly at 1.30 p.m. I'm tired of marking at every spare time I have.
Need to go for my mani and pedi as well as to look for hubby's birthday card.
I've his gift planned in mind but not bought since he needs to be there for sizing.
The idea struck me yesterday.
I'm excited his birthday is nearing.

My nails are so long, it's becoming difficult for me to type.
Should take a pic of my nails and post it. Haven't cut my nails in weeks.

Okay, it's 1.30 p.m.
Gotta go!

I walked past a man this afternoon. He was thin and there was something about him that touched my heart.
He was looking at bags sold on carts.
For a moment, it embarrassed me for carrying an expensive bag.
My wedding bag is my daily staple when I'm out. And it's cheaper than most bags I have.
Looking at him all bent over looking at those bags really touched my heart.
I buy the bags that I have because I like them. If I were to sum all the prices of the bags, it'd cost me over 10K. That's how much I can save if I didn't purchase them.
But the bags make me happy.
And that's what's important to me.
But that man reminded me of all the times that my brother would complain every time I buy a new bag.
And I will retaliate, saying that I paid for it, and not asked anyone to pay it for me.
He used to say, Why buy such an expensive item when so many people out there are homeless and hungry? Today, it hit me hard.

I'm turning human.

Will I buy another expensive bag? Today, it killed the bag-lover in me.

I'm done with both confirmation of lodgings and remarks!
Well, almost for the latter, save for 3 souls. I really don't know what to say about them.
You can only imagine the type of character they are.
Will take a break now after seated here for almost 3 hours.
Maybe, I'll get inspiration after my break.
Heh.