i'm not in the mood...to do anythin. supposed to read for tuesday's tutorial but i can't bring myself to read. totally doesn't match my mood rite now. gotta do chinese...BUT screw it. i'm not patient enuf to learn chinese characters tonyte. so wat do i wanna do? i juz wanna layan my own feelins. i felt really fine till he called.


take care dear & enjoy the experience. i'll be here waitin for your return.


i hate feelin like this. never experienced this before. not even when he had to leave for holiday trips. why am i turnin so dependent?? get a grip. maybe it's juz tonyte & i hav to owe it to my crampy stomach which is on-and-off. expectin menses...maybe that's why i'm turnin too emotional. is that good?? or bad? watever it is, i miss you. & gonna miss you even more. altho he hasn't left yet cos the flight's tomoro but it feels like he has cos there's no way for me to contact him.


hope the week does get by soon...